Thank you baby. To us xx

This girl thinks like me..... I'm loving it!

Puppies, Parties and......Portia ;)

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x x x x

Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeey!

I'm in such a good mood!! Lol, just finished singing and dancing around my room; you know what I'm talking about girls; hairbrush or remote as a microphone, banging out the dance moves. I'm so so so so tired but so so so so excited about things I can't talk about but can most definitely think about and get excited about lol. I've had butterflies for the last couple of days but that's another story..... ;). That's more of a personal thing but because of the butterflies I haven't been able to sleep a wink. Usually I don't sleep cos my minds just buzzing buzzing buzzing but for the last couple of days there has only been one thing on my mind.....

It's funny how things turn out.......... ;)

Anyway, I should probably brush on my last couple of days.... Ok I can't even remember lol. Ummmmm.... Ok....Oh yes! Well the usual really; but only one shoot since my last blog. (I think that was only a fey days ago) Did 2 interviews/features. Didn't work out. Actually worked out once. Ate a load of donuts and chocolate.....



On Monday I went straight from a "workout" in the gym down to my boys studio to catch up. Although an artist himself, he was working on a track for/with a boy group who I have to say have great talent. I had never heard of them before and still haven't managed to check out their stuff but I listened to them record a whole track and they are all wicked singers and lovely lovely people so I wish them and know they will get all the success possible. They are called Frixion so check them out! Can I quickly add that during that time my producing skills came to light and I discovered I had yet another talent lol! But I'm not actually joking! I just don't stop lol. I'm gonna do an engineering course anyway; I'm working on my music so I might as well produce some of my own tunes as well

Sorry I just had to take a quick break. I just had to go hard to Donaeo; it's a Funky Movement! Ok I'm back now.... Ok after recording was over we had a quick listening session and I got to hear some EXCLUSIVE stuff from the biggest group about to hit the music scene HARD; FDM, as well as some Neyo tunes that none of you have heard! Aren't you jealous? I know Neyo pissed me off not too long ago but oh my goodness that guy has mad talent. And the boys are heading in the same direction. Many of you probably already know about FDM and if you don't you're about to know. They recently got signed to Neyo! I'm sooooo excited for them as I know they have been on the scene for a while now and deserve everything that is coming their way. They are crazy talented, can dance AND sing (at the same time lol) and have a certain vibe about them that means they will always stand out from the rest. It's mad how exciting it is when something so exciting happens for someone else close to you! Well I predicted it anyway, lol. Well done boys...well done V ;) They are touring with Neyo and Kerri Hilson very soon; check out their site and get the tour dates; the first London show is already sold out so hurry hurry hurry! I can't explain to you how dope their album is..... http://www.myspace.com/fdmonline



So anyway the listening session was a little treat for me. I love listening sessions anyway; have had a few with artists such as Kardinal Offishall, Akon, Ray Lavender and I have had the pleasure of spending time with them in the studio recording, as well as Leona Lewis, so I'm fortunate to have been able to spend time with such musically talented people. I mean Akon and Kardinal Offishall...don't judge just what you hear them release themselves..... Akon is controlling about 70% of urban music; if he's not on the track he produced the track lol. And Kardinall Offishall; he's big, trust me. A lot of people's talents remain behind the camera; but that's because most of the time that's where the money is..... ;)

After getting home from the studio at about 3am I was on the phone until about 7am! Then I had a cold shower and got straight back to work! Nutter!!

I was supposed to meet up with Akon over the weekend; not just for a catch up with a very close friend but because I wanted to interview him for Portia Presents. Despite him being a good friend I won't hold back with the questions; many of you have emailed me with questions you want me to ask him and don't worry, I will! Most of it I already know anyway.... but I will just have to act surprised when he answers. Anyway, I didn't end up meeting him and a lot of my Twitter and Facebookers know why...... because just before I was on my way my friend called me sayng he had made me an apple crumble! Well c'mon what would you do???? I mean I was shattered anyway and I thought it was such a sweet gesture that I though oh what the heck, meet me at my house lol. Awww J I love you sweetie, you know me too well ;)

Anyway it's not a biggie; I'll get the interview wrapped up over the next few weeks.

I am also looking for up and coming talent to interview for the show, though I am being selective, hit me up!!



I keep having to stop writing so that I can dirty dance to the slow jams that keep playing! I think I should change the cd now..... Ok I'm locked into Kiss! Oh even worse.... now I'm tryna fight temptation to sing and dance to Destiny's Child! Love them.... Get back together get back together!!!!

Ok my darlings I have to go; two of my girls just turned up plus I just remembered I've left a crumble in the oven! (I just don't stop) I'm tryna put some weight back on though! I've gone from a 10 to an 8 and I'd feel like a 10yr old if I went even smaller to a 6; yuk! Luckily my bum hasn't gone but it's heading that way if I don't start getting some more sleep and less stress!

Love you all ;)

Keep your mind right and your body tight!

P xxxx



No make up, no sleep and check out my swollen eye!! :(

Baby don't tell me you miss me, you love me
Don't whisper gently that you can't forget me
Tonight, cause I've heard it all before
Just turn away, don't play that game
Baby I don't want to anymore


Let it all fade away
Don't you know that love is gone
It's too late
Everything fades away
Nothing ever stays the same
Baby, no no no

Don't tell me you're sorry you hurt me
How many times can I give in
How many battles can you win
Oh don't beg for mercy
Tonight, cause I can't take any more
Just turn around, don't break me down
Baby I don't love you like before


Let it all fade away
Don't you know that love is gone
It's too late
Everything fades away
Nothing ever stays the same
Baby
Nothing ever stays the same


It only fades, it only fades

Sit down; let me tell you a quick story.....

Once there was a prince walking through the woods. He spotted bulls eye targets painted on many trees, and in the very centre of each one was an arrow and no other marks on the tree.

"Bring me the archer that has done this as I must have him for my body guard", he said.
So they searched and they found a young lad who claimed to have shot the arrows.

"It's amazing how you can do this each time on the first shot" said the prince. "If you can demonstrate this shooting to me you can have up to half my kingdom and be my personal aide."

So the day and time was set for the demonstration and the young lad led them into the woods with his bow and arrows (and a bucket of paint with a brush). As the prince watched, the young lad aimed at a perfectly clean tree, shot the arrow in, then quickly painted a bulls eye around it so the arrow was dead centre.

"You see", he said. "A bulls eye every time on the first shot".

Things are not always what they seem

The real Lioness......is tired tired tired!

The plan was to upload vids and pics of my week as there is so much to tell you and I thought it easier if I just let you watch what I have been up to! But just realised how much time and patience that involves, plus some of the pics are on my phone not my digital camera and although I have the wire the laptop is being a moron, so.... I guess you will just have to wait. I'm getting bored of always writing about what I have been getting up to cos I feel like I am repeating myself; most days involve shoots, filming, now the gym ( ;) ) and constant meetings and I am sure you already know that so.... gonna brush on my week then gonna share something with you. Ok so I had about 4 shoots this week, got tortured by a personal trainer (I left him after 20 minutes after finding out what he just made me do was only a warm up...Murderer!! ) One particular meeting I had this week has had me quite excited; although it is early days it is actually a huge charity project and I will be their spokeswoman!! My first proper spokesmodel job; I am so proud! Really proud to be representing as well cos it's an amazing and inspiring project. And I love that as a model I have yet another reason to show that I am more then a pretty face; being a spokesmodel is not as easy as you may think. I'm looking forward to attending events and appearing on tv shows to help spread the word. The woman behind the campaign is lovely and so intelligent; and it's not a coincidence that she is a Libra lol! What can I say, we just got it going on! Talking about Librans, I forgot to mention in one of my last posts that model Saffi Karina (Playboy, and I shot Flavour magazine with her) was also a judge for the semi-finals for the top UK model search for Juice magazine. Did I mention that competition? Saffi, Jessica Rabbit (akamissrabbit.com) and myself were asked to judge and find the finalists. The winner will be sent to New York and will shoot the cover; something I recently did! I will let you know when that cover is out. Literally all the finalists were beautiful and it was quite hard to let some go. That day was quite surreal actually; I had girls screaming saying "oh my God I just touched Portia Freno" !!?? MADNESS!! Anyway, good luck to the finalists, see you at the finals and you are all beautiful and intelligent enough to make it! xx

I'm actually really shattered today; literally didn't sleep a wink and just stayed up and continued working. I'm chilling now though and I'm gonna go and eat again in a minute; made a lovely Thai green curry which tastes off the hook. BEEP BEEP!

My favourite shoot this week was one I did yesterday. It was on location and I had a sneaky peek at some of the pics on the photographers laptop and I must say I was quite amazed; I really put my game on yesterday as it was quite high fashion/edgy and as you know you can't just stand there and do the same dry poses. It was a very natural shoot though; I barely had make up on which is great; to be a successful model you can't hide behind pretty make up; modelling is all in the eyes, the expression, the pose. It's a lot easier sometimes if the make up is amazing as you instantly look good without trying. Anyway was really really happy with what I saw and I'm dying to show you but can't post up ANY pics obviously until the images are used. You know how it goes :( And remember most new/best pics will only be on my official website as I don't post them up on my blog, social networks etc as people can steal them! The pic above was shot by Omar Mckenzie; he's great to work with!

After the shoot I went to a shisha restaurant and smoked peach and watermelon shisha for hours! It was great! lol. I even learned some Persian and apparently I am very good! I may record myself for you guys; I learned some naughty stuff as well lol. What? Never know when you might need it ;) Had some food and before I knew it it was 1am. Was gonna take a late night creep to Finchley to see a friend but he was tired and I was shattered so got picked up and called it a day. But no! Came home to a million and one emails and have been awake ever since! lol! Diaries of an insomniac and workaholic.... I am actually supposed to be in the studio as we speak but my BlackBerry is buggered somehow and I feel unwell so had to cancel.

Oh I might be an ambassador for a really big company; cross your fingers for me and I will let you know if it happens and if it does then I will tell you who for!

I think my feature with the Daily Sport runs on Tuesday but I will let you know for definite over the weekend.

Keep the 25th of May free guys. I have been booked to host a party with Buffie The Body. For those of you who for some reason have not heard of her she is a model with like the biggest boootaaay lol. She's shot covers for all the major American mens mags. Her line of work is quite different to mine but she is huge in the States so again, flattered to be getting booked with such known models. Google her for her website cos I haven't even checked it myself and don't know what it is. So she'll be flying down to host Juice magazines finals afterparty. Email me for more info and guestlist. This one's gonna be crazy, trust me!

I've just remembered I was supposed to share something with you right? Maybe later or tomorrow; belly's rumbling, sorry!

In a bit!

Lioness xx

Hello again lovely readers, just another quick one as I've got a very busy day today. Surely you must be proud of me for the regularity in which I am now blogging!

You will not be so proud, however, to know that I have not been working out as religiously as originally planned....Oh well, don't need to anyway! Blah to working out! No that's not true, we all need regular exercise and I plan on getting back on it next week. Planning and doing, two different things!

Today I have a shoot, then I have to rush to the Semi-Finals for Juice Magazines next top Uk model search; the winner flies to New York, shoots the cover, etc. I am a judge and I will be judging alongside top model from the US Jessica Rabbit. I am more than happy to help to pick a model I feel has not only the beauty but the talent and the drive to actually make it in this industry. It really takes a lot more than looks and I hope we find a girl with the full package! Lol, have to laugh at something my friend wrote on their Twitter about every girl thinking they are a model now. It started a little debate actually, and it's true, he and many others are right; doing a couple of photoshoots doesn't make you a model. If that's the case everyone is a model because anyone can pay a photographer to make them look good! It takes a long time of castings, jobs (PAID JOBS) and experience to be able to call yourself a model. There's a big difference between an aspiring model, and a working model. Anyone can look good with a good photographer and make up, but without those, can you still work the camera? Who are you modelling for? I could go and grab a girl off road, stick her in front of a good photographer and get some great shots; is she now a model? Lol. Get real. This is for all those aspiring models and working models who are striving towards success; not claiming it before they've even achieved anything!

After the shoot and the judging, I have a meeting with a woman regarding a charity campaign I may be modelling for, so I will keep you posted as and when I get more info.

In regards to my lingerie line, one or two things needed to get sorted asap so the team have flown to Asia for a couple of meetings...leaving me behind! I could do with a bit of sun! (real sun, not this British crap) But I know there is too much to be done here and I haven't the time to be jetting off. The meetings are important but nothing the rest of the team can't deal with.

The other day I mentioned I was tired of working and shooting and filming and writing and producing etc. I then got about 30 emails asking me if I'm "retiring" LOL! They were the funniest emails I've had in a while! Retiring! Get real! I'm not even close to the success I've got in mind. It was funny cos I know I've still got so much to do but also sweet that some people believed I was in a position to "retire". Lol. Hopefully before I am 26 I can not retire, but really kick back and start a family etc, but I do plan on retiring properly before I am 30; don't wanna be middle-aged and still hustling, no way! That's when I'll stop and give my children/husband 100% of my time. I'm not gonna be a Madonna whos kids never see her!

I'm just about to answer some questions for the Daily Sport so I'll let you know when you can read the interview

I just wanna thank Mr weatherman for the sun; keep it shining

Keep your mind right and your body tight

Lioness xx

I'm on a roll!!

2 days in a row! Good huh? And I'll tell you what else I've been keeping up; my gym visits! Ok I've only worked out a few times since starting last week, but trust me that is a few times more than usual! I just ran up hill for half an hour, did some body toning with the personal trainer and now I'm gonna go and do a load of sit ups and squats. So be proud of me! I guess I've never really bothered with working out as I've always been fortunate enough to be able to eat as much as I do (you wouldn't believe how much unless you saw it; even then you may not) and still maintain my shape/weight whatever. But it's important to reach high levels of fitness, plus working out releases lots of endorphins (the happy hormone, lol) Well I think that's what they are called, endorphins, I've probably spelt it wrong; I will google it later and find out. All I know is you feel great after a good workout; even if you can't walk after! And yes I am still talking about the gym.

So, I'm gonna get back to the gym, possibly jump in the jacuzzi for 10 mins if I've got time, and then my friend is gonna come and pick me up and take me out to........eat. Lots of food. Kinda defeats the whole purpose of this self-torture thing but oh well. I would have done it anyway, exercise or no exercise.

Such a shame that the weather has taken a turn for the worst :( But this is England so didn't expect much else. To be honest I'm not too bothered; at the moment I'm just working on my little secret project, my lingerie line and my body so I'm in hibernation anyway! I wouldn't have much time to soak up the sun. Though it's always lovely when the sun is shining...motivates you a little more.

Anyway my lovelies, just tryna update regularly so that I don't get any more complaints ;)

Maybe even speak to you later?

Portia xxxx

....

Today should be a sad day but I see it as a celebration of someone so caring, so lovely and generous. Today is a celebration of her life and a chance to remember how grateful we should be that someone so loving and beautiful was ever a part of our lifes. She still is, always will be; will never be forgotten.

Love you always. You didn't deserve what happened to you but now you are in a better place. I hope so anyway. That's what everyone says right? Call me selfish but I'd rather you be here with me than in that "better place". But I will see you soon. R.I.P. Love you always.

Today I was with my family all day; later I will drive back down to London


Soooo.....

I know that once again I have neglected my blogging duties! I'm actually considering removing it; I have a much more personal blog on my Members Site plus I don't see the point in having a blog if it's not updated regularly. A blog is supposed to have new posts constantly; really I should be posting up everything when I'm out and about, at meetings, shoots, filming, at home, with friends, whatever. I should be blogging and posting up pics and videos so you get to really share my world. But to be honest that's not really my thing; some things have got to be private! But my Members do get a much better blog; more personal, more vids etc.

I don't even know where to start. Ummmmm.... ok lets talk work. I have a new feature on my website called Portia Presents. You will basically get to see me interview celebs, up and coming talent etc, and if you're lucky you may even get to follow me to some events or shoots. But it's all presented by moi! My entrepeneurial streak meant that I wasn't happy with just the workshops, the Members site, the charity etc. I need my own show now! Lol. Produced and directed by me myself and I. The other day I interviewed rising star, Actor Adam Deacon; you need to google him! He's got some huge achievements under his belt and he's only 25! It was great to also get in the studio with him as well and speak about his musical talent. I love talking to multi-talented people! I will let you know when the show is up and running; still got a lot of interviews and filming to do and trying to work out what goes where, for example what will go on my public site and what will go on my private one; gotta save the best features for my Members!



So I've been working on my show, lining up interviews etc. Another much bigger project is my LINGERIE LINE! Woo Hoo!! I got approached by a company to be the face of my own lingerie line; yes they have in-house designers but I have also brought one of my own on board and I still get to create EVERYTHING. I'm not taking any shortcuts! I will create and design the whole line myself and I already have a few different ranges in mind. I got asked to do this a little while ago but obviously negotiating and reading through contracts can take some time! But since mentioning it I have literally been asked constantly about it so I am sure it will sell out before it hits stores! I want to create some gorgeous, sexy, playful but classy pieces, something that represents all my personalities and also many other women out there! I feel so blessed to have this opportunity and I promise you all that I will take my time with it and come up with some quality designs. Nothing less than the best! lol. For more information on my up and coming lingerie line email Bookingenquiries@PortiaFreno.com


There is another EVEN BIGGER project that I am working on! Lol, but as I mentioned in my last post now is not the time to be talking about that.

So I think it's fair to say that I have been working hard on all my entrepreneur projects, and the website etc that for the last few weeks I have hardly been a model! For me modelling was a stepping stone, a hobby I was passionate about and still am. But as I start to grow and progress I'm finding that modelling is only like 40% of what I do at the moment, which I think is great, cos it shows that I am versatile and capable of a lot more. However I have still found the time to fit in a few shoots over the last few weeks as work is work and I am still a model, regardless. You may have noticed that I rarely post up new pics; I don't see the point in posting stuff up on facebook really so all my images will only be used for my websites. Obviously I can't post up anything until the images have been used for the publication or brand, but even after that it's not really about Facebook, lol. Ok I might treat you facebookers now and then! lol.


Ok so everyone's gone Twitter mad at the moment? It is kinda cool, but do you not think a little inner? I mean who wants to know if you've just been in the shower or what programme you're watching? I try it every now and then but I'm not gonna lie, I feel a little silly sometimes. I mean would you stop a stranger in the street and tell them what you're cooking that night? NO. Would you stop a stranger and tell them what programme you watched earlier? NO. I dunno...thnk I'm gonna have to have a little think about this Twitter thing; sometimes I like it sometimes I hate it. Twitter is still on probation

Ok that's most of work out of the way (well as much as I can speak about) so how about pleasure..... Well I'm not a party girl so I can't say I've been raving it up hard and I don't really have many stories to tell you about mad nights out or getting mad drunk; I'm a bit bored of stuff like that at the moment. I like to have a nce night out every once in a while, and the best ones are prob the ones you don't plan! For example my girl picked me up from a shoot the other day; on the way back we hit a little bar in Clapham, then went on to SO;UK, then when she was dropping me home we passed through Boujis and I had a fantastic time! Oh but some MAN stole my jacket from my table! Ummm...What is THAT all about???? Weirdo. I can just imagine him wearing it now. Freaks me out. And the night wasn't over there! Once we left Boujis we headed to The Royal Garden Hotel for some munch as the food there is amazing. Prawns, grilled salmon, rice, potatoes, chicken soup...YUM! Most people know about my huge appetite and the amount I eat, despite being a size 10 (size 8 if I've got an important shoot coming up lol)






Oh, talking about sizes, I've been hitting the gym hard! Well I say hard, hard for me as I am SO not a workout girl...But I am now! Yoga, pilates, cardio, power plate, abs work, you name it I'm doing it!! I'm not out of shape, and I'm not overweight, but there is always room for improvement and I'm a fussy cow, even the personal trainer told me that! Oh and can you believe that apparently I have too much body fat...on my arse!! Well excuse me but since when was that a problem? What is the world coming to? Lol. I already feel like I am slowly losing my arse as the trainer works me out more and more. Sly ones......I am fighting a bum war, and I will win!! My bum can be as big as it likes as long as my waist stays itsy bitsy; which is hard for a big eater like me! Seriously I don't know how I do it..... but wish me luck and pray that I stick to it; I want to be back in the same shape I was when I shot SHOW magazine and also with a lot of promo coming up for the lingerie line, I can't be any less than perfect. No pressure......



In between working and chilling I've been on a madness with friends; driving death traps, falling in and out of love, eating 8 course meals and late night milkshakes.....I won't elaborate....

I actually wrote all of the above yesterday (Saturday) but I am continuing today! I got a little distracted yesterday, then I drove back down to London, went home, bathed etc then he came round........ then he left..... with ALL of my mint ice cream! By the time he left it was just after midnight which is still very early for me so I read for a little bit but realised I was bored and it was Saturday night! I would have gone with him to play pool and eat some food but wasn't allowed! Kmt. Luckily just as I was contemplating what to do my friend who lives local called me and popped round, kept me company....And now it's Sunday and I prob will not do much today but cook and clean and a bit of writing...oh and some sit ups! Was meant to go for a steam but someone let me down to go and do some running competition!! Pfffttt!! I guess I could go alone; I'm just making excuses.....

Anyway, I've missed out sooo much but like I said earlier unless I'm gonna blog regularly I will probably forget or miss out lots of important stuff. Ok I am going to try to blog regularly again like before; I promise! This week is a trial; lets see how much I blog! Starting from....NOW!

Ciao!

I'm still alive!!!!

Yep I am still here, still alive!! I have been getting hounded about my blog, and you're gonna get even more frustrated when I tell you that I am still not revealing much right now...I'm working on a new project which is gonna require time and patience from you guys as well as myself! I may post bits and bobs up on here every so often, so don't become a stranger to the site, but in regards to what I'm working on I am legally bound and can't reveal a thing, seriously! Best things come to those that wait though, and any of you that know me know that when I am quiet I am up to something.... ;) So please just bear with me cos right now I really do not have the time to be blogging/facebooking/twittering everything that is going on with me right now!! All I need is your continued support so that this new project becomes the best it can be

Just a quick shout out to Ask Your Girl; they hit me up recently saying they had some goodies for me! So I met up with the brains behind the fast-growing clothing line, Caj and picked up the hottest baby pink playerette jacket ever! As well as some swagger champ sunglasses and an Ask Your Girl t-shirt. The clothes are looking big and we discussed some business as well.... Seriously everywhere I look now I keep seeing the brand so it's a good look for them!

I'm getting excited about your emails enquiring about my lingerie line; looks like it might sell out the minute it hits stores! Lol. There will def be something for everyone so keep an eye out......

Love you all! Stay happy, healthy, positive...Live your Life to the fullest!

Enjoy this sunny weather

Portia xx

http://www.AskYourGirl.com

xxxx

Love Your Life!

Hey!

I am going to type this sooooo fast as I have to go and do something but I've been dying to write something for the last few days but haven't had a chance to!

It feels like things are changing for me and like I am going in a direction I never imagined myself going in; it's hard to explain but doors are opening and although it isn't the path I necessarily imagined myself taking, it is still an exciting and challenging journey so I am willing to go for it!

Anyway, I guess you will hear/see/know more on that as and when things start to develop...

Last week I hosted the Love Ur Life Charity Date Auction and it was so much fun! I was presenting alongside Little Man and he had me in stitches!

The auction was aimed to raise money for the Terrence Higgins Trust; an organisation that raises awareness on sexual health issues; very important I must say! Particularly for young adults/teenagers as they are getting more and more careless these days!

So, the Kaizen Creatives got 10 gorgeous guys and girls together and they were up for auction! It was good because the incentives to bid were great; free tickets to concerts such as Musiq SoulChild and T-Pain, as well relaxing spa pampering days.

The acts were fantastic; Wre-Asha's voice was big! Soulful and powerful, she rocked it Erykah Badu style. Little Man tried to woo me with a rose that was given to him! Pfttt..I wasn't having any of it.

One of the beautiful Auctionesses!



Testing the goods for the ladies...I'm such a good host!



Little Man tells them where they are going on their date!



Bruno was for sale!




This girl's legs were like never-ending!



Al was gorgeous! Some lucky girl got him for fifty squid!





Keston, Keston, Keston...lol!



The highest Auctioness!



Wreh-Asha showed the UK how it's done



Well done to the organisers!




Your hosts ;)





I wasn't even able to stay for the after party so I rushed off, jumped in the car and was on my way to Penthouse for my friend's night; it was CRAZY!








Now I've got a bit of research to do....also something I am very nervous about...

Anyway John Legend is having a party to celebrate his artist Vaughn Anthony's album launch, so if I get the time (and the energy) to head down there tonight I may do....

Have a great week ;)

Porsh xx

If you can't handle me at my worst, you don't deserve me at my best

Back To Normal Then!

Ok so it's official that I am back to my old self; I was up working until after 3am this morning, then rather than go straight to sleep I had a little munch. As normal, my phone calls started at around 6.30am, so I was back awake again after a couple of hours sleep. I have a 2pm appointment but still so much to do before then and I'd really like a 30 minute power nap before heading towards my destination. Not going to happen! But I love it!

Some of you are asking why my last post got edited; lets just say I am already taking back my comments....I was too hasty to get upset and write something that in actual fact isn't really true. It all got sorted and I realised I was being ungrateful and that the friend is an amazing friend; and an unconditional one at that. I really am too dramatic and emotional and I need to work on that!


I had a quick peep at some of my website videos; there will soon be some up both on my website and my Members Only site for you all to enjoy. The next few weeks are going to be mayhem but I can't wait until certain things are concrete so that I can really fill you in

Until then...

Ciao xx

I WILL NOT LOSE!

(by the way I think Jay Z is big but I'm just feeling the tune and feel like I can relate to it in many ways
)


So I've been having an awful month and an even worse week; but blah blah blah who cares? I've already missed out on a couple of things this week (yes I know this week has only just started but I was supposed to attend some things this morning ((Monday))and due to some let downs was unable to. ..)

Anyhoo..... I WILL NOT LOSE! ;)

I am off to London today despite the disappointment as I have a run through for an event I am presenting. There is also so much to be done this week including shoots; Yeaaaahhh!!! Feels like I haven't done a shoot for ages despite it probably not being more than 2 or 3 weeks. Actually that is ages. But I think it's safe to say I am back to work! Part of me tells me I haven't had enough chill out time but I haven't much choice as some of these things I was booked for quite a while ago, plus the other part of me is itching to get back to doing what I do best

The sun is shining, and I heard it is in London too ;)

Your girl is back

Love ya

Porsh xx

Still recovering... :(

I didn't sleep a wink last night I was in so much pain. Then I spent the whole of today in hospital which was a nightmare but my girl stayed with me the whole day which I am very grateful for. Without best friends you will not get through a single thing.

I'm upset because I've had to miss Juice magazine's private launch party tonight. I've also missed out on a lot of work, shoots, meetings; I was supposed to meet up with some people that had flown down from the States for tonights party as well. Well I guess there will be other times and rather than focus on what I am missing out on I'm gonna have to just focus on getting better

I'm tired already from trying to write so I will have to get back to you later.


Sorry to be such a bore; I promise after I've had my rest and recovery time I will come back with a bang ;)

Love ya

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Recovering....

I'm a bit down at the mo....had an operation yesterday and now I really do not feel myself and I am unable to get on with certain things. I'm angry with myself for letting it affect me more than I thought it would, but I'm sure that after a couple of days chilling out I will soon be back on the road.

My launch party went really well despite the fact that I was 4 hours late! It really was not intentional; I've sent out apologies to all my supporters and 99% of them understand lol. The other 1% said that they will never forgive me! Even when I did arrive I was a bit distant as I had yesterdays op on my mind...But a big thank you to all of those that came; especially those that came at 7 and actually waited untill 11.30pm for me to arrive just to meet me. That is real support and it got me a bit tearful lol. But maybe that was because I was emotional anyway.

My "rock" came with me yesterday and has been an absolute Godsend looking after me since. I really am counting my blessings right now.

I guess all there is for me to do right now is search for my holiday destination and recover....

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Haven't been very well...but a surprise made it all better!

I haven't been very well recently; plus I've had a lot going on and stuff happening that is beyond my control; plus my PA is taking time off for unforseen circumstances so you can imagine that everything is a bit mad right now! I think it's safe to say that I have kinda been neglecting my work...kinda... but you know what it can't always be the most important thing to me and I've needed/still need time to recover so.....

The thing is some stuff in my work just can't wait. If it is neglected, it fails and I can't afford that. So I have to keep going on despite not being able to carry on. It's mad. It sometimes makes me hate my job. I've been really really thinking these last couple of weeks....

Anyway, I've had great support from loved ones, especially my closest and most loved friends.

If only you knew how badly I needed a break.....

And then; a very dear friend who I must admit has been a rock to me these last couple of months despite our ups and downs gave me THE BEST surprise EVER last night!
He said I can choose wherever I want to go on a holiday!!!! I was elated! Seriously; it's just what I need. I've been on the net literally all hours of this morning trying to decide where to go but I just can't decide. I had some help from my facebook buddies but I'm still so unsure. I don't want to travel too far as it will only be for 5 days or so; I can't really go away any longer than that unless I wait a few months as I have been booked to present a few charity events and host a couple of gigs so I have to squeeze the break in somewhere in between!

As I was saying to my pals;

"I need some winter sun! And it needs to be BAKING so I am guaranteed a healthy looking glow! lol. And preferably a hotel with great spa facilities. And it has to be on, or right near a beach. Somewhere that is a quiet retreat but not too far from night life if I feel like a little dance! And lots of scenic walks and history/culture. But I'm not fussy or anything! looool. Seriously I am so indecisive it's killing me. And nothing is ever quite right....HELP!! xxxx"

Lol! Any suggestions?

Anyway I'm off to a meeting that I believe will prove to be very worth my while so let me start getting prepared. I won't elaborate; I now have a Members Only diary that I update so only my Member's know the little ins and outs...of a lot of things; personal and business. Cool huh?

Ciao!

Oh and don't be jealous of my little break; I was thinking somewhere in the Caribbean or a gorgeous European city..... ;)

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