Diary of a Lioness



Wednesday 31 December 2008

BE PROUD OF ME!!

Because I am! lol. So yesterday a very close friend of mine's mum, who is also like a mother to me, told me that I must be downstairs by 7.30am the following morning to go running with her! I was like "yeah that's cool with me, I can do that! When will we get back? Like, 7.45?"

Ha!

She laughed for about 5 mins then said we will be running for an hour and 15 mins!!!! And I knew she wasn't joking because she is a very healthy woman who gets up at the crack of dawn to exercise and pray, so I knew I was in for some serious torture.

I called my friend who is chilling in the sun abroad (alright for some) and he laughed down the phone, telling me I'm not capable. Well that just made me even more determined; I'll show him!

Making things harder for myself as usual, I didn't fall asleep until about 4am, which I guess isn't too bad for me, but when my alarm went off at ten past 7 I wasn't a happy bunny. I looked out the window and noticed that there was ice covering the cars in the drive, it wasn't even completely light yet, but even worse still, my friends mother's car was not in the drive!!

Now, I could have praised the lord for letting me off and jumped straight back into bed; in fact, I almost did do this until I realised that I had another 20 mins to get ready and knowing my luck she would come back 2 minutes before we were due to go all ready and pumped up, find me snoozing and never believe that I really did get up.

So I thought cool, let me prepare myself for the worst (Her coming back)

I splashed cold water on my face, brushed my teeth, pulled on a trackie and sat watching Eve on Sky planner..........

.......Ok.......8am and Auntie (that's what I call her) still was not back.

BUT; Did I crawl back into bed thanking my lucky stars?

NO.

I went jogging alone. Yes. I took myself out of the warm, into the spiteful bitter cold, and went jogging!! Me!!

You're probably thinking... So....??? But seriously this really is not my sort of thing, I mean, I'll get up early for something worthwhile like work or flights. But jogging?? Really? Be serious.

So the road I was on is like the longest road ever, so I thought I'd run all the way around which might not sound far but it's about a mile run, but I ended up going to Valley Green Walk and running through the parks. It was quite nice actually; everyone I passed said good morning and were either walking their dogs or putting themselves through torture like I was, so I wasn't alone!!

The mad part is I actually enjoyed it! I warmed up after a few minutes; the only thing I regret is going out without an i-pod or some music cos I think that would have kept me going for longer.

Haha Auntie just came in the room ready to go jogging! How funny! I told her I had already been and she gave me the look! I'm so glad there are witnesses (I made a show of going and made sure a few people saw, or heard, me leaving the house) Anyway she said she's proud of me :)

To be honest I'm kinda glad I missed her because she is now going jogging for an hour and 15 mins, when I only went for half an hour! Ok, 20 mins. But that's only cos I got bored.

It gets better....

When I got back, I did some crunches! I say "some" because that way you will be more impressed than if I tell you how many I actually did.

Just be proud. And I might actually do it again. I'll film it next time for a laugh

Ok, I promise you there are much bigger things for you to be proud of me for...I promise!!!!

I was gonna take a quick nap before beginning my day but I just got told I've got to look after my little Godson while Auntie goes jogging; he's about to wake up and I need to give him a shower and make him breakfast. I love him so much, even though he is extremely cheeky.

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Gonna love ya and leave ya

P xxxx

Wednesday 24 December 2008

Happy Xmas xxxx


I wasn't supposed to write on here until I was given the go ahead to reveal certain news to you all, but there was no way I could not say Happy Christmas to all my fans!

I was going to post up a video blog but I am a blabber mouth and it was too tempting to just start talking about all the exciting projects I have in store for you, so I thought it better I just leave a little note to wish you all a fantastic xmas.

I know you are all a little mad at me; I have been getting too many emails asking me where I'm at and how come I'm not keeping you all posted; it's so hard at the moment because I can't reveal what I want to, and as for my private life, I haven't the time to let you know what's going on! And I would never have my PA or anyone else do my blogs for me, so I'd rather keep quiet for a while and come back with a bang, rather than bore you with posts that don't really say much.....I don't have time for much of a personal life at the mo...and those special few that are a part of my world HATE being spoken about....(I've got in a lot of trouble in the past :( ) So it's quite hard for me as I know you all like to know the ins and outs but my loved ones come before my career....

Anyhoo....was feeling quite unwell but I'm not too bad now....

Have a wonderful, wonderful Christmas, an amazing New Year...and remember 2009 is a fresh start...Keep things moving...Keep working hard. Keep praying and striving. Nothing happens before it's time. You will get what you deserve; all the hard work will pay off.

I'm feeling so good! Almost lost a very dear friend and I am just happy that we were able to make amends and be back to normal before the end of the year....It was horrible not speaking....

I love you all

See you in the New Year!!!! (at my OFFICIAL Website and Member's Only Site Launch Party)

You'd be very silly not to be there ;)

I'm going to leave you with one of my favourites at the mo. I suggest you open a bottle of Pinot and play it 30 times, while slow dancing around the room





P xxxx

Thursday 4 December 2008

I'm back!!!



Wooooow.








It's been crazy this last two weeks; CRAZY!!








I don't party that much, seriously, but I have been booked for so many appearances and asked to host so many events/parties that I have been working 24,7!!








Last night I was booked to host at Penthouse with Kano; I had quite a bad cold though so looked a little like Rudolph. I had a really nice time; I was shown a lot of love! I was being snapped all night and everytime I left VIP to use the bathroom, I was getting stopped by fans asking me if I would take a picture with them. It still feels weird to me, I can't get used to it! One girl was actually saying how Kano and I are her biggest favourite stars and kept wanting pictures. Again, very strange.








I mean, there's me, walking down Bond St, pulling a flipping suitcase, in a bad mood cos I just got of a train, and people are stopping me asking if I'm Portia Freno. I'm thinking damn! I can't keep on walking out of the house looking like crap anymore! :(








But it's all good.









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Kano didn't perform last night. He said there were a few discrepancies...I had a good time anyway but I know quite a few people were disappointed.


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Quit snapping me ;)


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This girl really was a true fan; One time she bumped into me and she was like "oh my God, I bumped into Portia Freno!". I'm not even joking. ????


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With my boy Elliot (Napper)


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Filming for BET and some other channel but I forgot which one


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Keli and Laura


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Filming at 4am...Shouting out my fans on Yo! Raps


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Just P...







Last Sunday I was booked to appear at 20 in Kensington; had the best time I've had in ages!! Everyone's hitting me up now like "Yeah that's the spot" lol. It was just such a nice night; wicked music, great vibes, great people.


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Told you the music was wicked

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My table is always bubbling!


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Don't ask

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The club look after me well and I have no reasons to complain. Being paid to party and have fun. Hmmm. It's cool with me. But I don't want to do too many appearances; though I do intend on hosting at 20 this Sunday due to popular demand! You should come! It's a great club.
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With Gaia, the boss




I've got some really exciting new projects! To be honest I'm feeling quite unwell and its 4am so I'm planning on getting an "early" night, plus I like keeping things secret until they are in action...so I'm not going to elaborate now. I'm confirming a few things tomorrow and over the weekend so you will soon know. I've got a vid to post up for you of me after Penthouse last night but again, too tired to be bothered to upload it. Damn, I'm sounding like a right cow aren't I? Anyway I reveal a few things in the vid...I'll post it 2moro when I get the time.




I'm off to the gym tomorrow; it'll be the second time this week!! Be proud of me; this is coming from the girl who actually joined a gym twice and within both the 6 month-membership periods managed to go no more than 2 or 3 times. And those times consisted of me using the sauna, steam room, jacuzzi, and eating in the cafe. So, like I said, be very proud of me. I'm kinda lucky to get away with not working out, especially as I am SO greedy, but I am shooting for a series soon (more details on that coming) and I have a role where I need to be in PERFECT shape. It's a bit unrealistic to give myself a week to tone up but oh well. So now I've got to work out with a cold but I am determined. Just hope I don't end up in one of the many yummy food places surrounding the gym instead. Wish me luck. Saying that, I've got a good trainer and motivator who is EXTREMELY PUSHY, ANNOYING, and MEAN, but I am grateful for him ;)




Oh yeah; the other day I followed Jagged Edge to one of their gigs to support them. I already knew Wingo from meeting him at a career development centre in Atlanta. So I went with my girls; my best friend Laura, my girl Sisi and a few of her friends.


It was a MADNESS


One of the band members, and I'm not going to say who, got sooo drunk it was unbelievable. He turned into a completely different person! He tried to bring the bottle of vod onto the stage and was wrestling with it in the VIP before going on! It really is true that drink is the devil; he turned so nasty and started attacking people; even his own band members!


I've always loved Jagged Edge, but it was disappointing to see that. Obviously there is a lot more but I've prob already said too much so I'm gonna leave it there. It wasn't Wingo by the way; he's cool


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Wingo, Levi from Blackstreet and Kyle. Waiting to go on stage


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Nadia, Sisi and I


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Sisi, Wingo and I, posing for different cameras lol


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Yep. We're mad
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Oh I forgot to tell you I lost my Pinkberry!! :( Hundreds and hundreds of videos, pictures, voice notes.......GONE!!! Can you believe I didn't back them up!! I kept meaning to... Anyway I was insured and got my lovely little Pinkberry back (I love her soooo much) but that's not the point. I lost everything. Some lucky bugger is gonna get some useful info... to think of all the numbers on there as well!!
Anyhoo, I need to try to sleep.
Translation; I'm coming off this now so that I can go through my emails ;)
Look out for what's coming up....
Portia xxxx




Friday 28 November 2008

Check Out My Celeb Status!!


Just a quick one cos I'm mad busy and about to head out; There is an exclusive charity fundraiser for breast cancer coming up that I got invited to, it's being covered by OK mag, and I just looked at the event page and there I am listed as a confirmed celeb attending! Celeb huh?? Loool. Loving it ;)

Check it here and scroll down

http://www.skiddle.com/whats-on/London/20-Kensington/Carolines-Campaign-Celebrity-Fundraiser-Event-/11260688/

Things are moving


Got so much to write about but no time! There was a madness with Jagged Edge the other night as well but you will just have to wait :(

Oh, but come and party with me this Sunday; I've been asked to host a night at 20 in Kensington and it will be really good! I'm going to go there after passing through the Sunday Show.... For more details and to get on the guestlist check my facebook or contact my PA Rebecca Riley  RebeccaRiley@hotmail.co.uk


Love ya


Ciao xx


Thursday 20 November 2008


Hey lovely people!

I have come to accept that I have a problem; I seriously suffer from insomnia.

Even though at times I might feel excruciatingly tired I still can't sleep. So I find myself up working, or listening to music.

I wouldn't mind so much because I don't tend to need too much sleep to be able to function, but I am also a model and in front of the camera a lot; whether it's a photoshoot or filming, I can't be having eye bags!!

I might go on a little break straight after the event; just a few days. Dubai or something. Well I need to get that holiday glow back anyway!

It's been a crazy last couple of days. Or maybe strange is a better word to use. Some things have been very upsetting, some have been annoying, but because of work and so much other stuff going on I've been unable to really let it get to me, and also unable to keep you guys updated.

What really, really did get to me though, is when a very nasty person played an evil trick on me;

She pretended that a friend of mine had passed away.

What kind of screwed up mess is that????

For 30 long, awful, devastating minutes, I was left to believe it. I do not feel to get into the emotions that I went through myself and for the family; all I will say is that some people really need to go and see someone. Urgently. But then for people that messed up; is there any hope? I felt sick with disgust.

Talking about mental people; I've had more than my fair share of them this week! I've had more fake profile's set up, and hear the latest! A fake email address in my name! Yes! PortiaFreno@gmx.com. Funny right? It's even funnier because my people know who it is, so we do feel very sorry for her, but at the same time it is a hassle to think that they are emailing people pretending to be me.

I was discussing it with a few people, including Sarah-Jane Adams, a journalist and editor-in-chief for Flair magazine, who said that even though everyone says imitation is the highest form of flattery, she sees it as the lowest form of unoriginality.

Totally agree.

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I've also been having some discrepancies regarding some of my images; it seems that some of my Member's Only and also personal pics of mine have got out. My team got onto it straight away but there is only so much they can do; they can't find every single site that they are on!

I was pissed off for like 5 minutes, but then after speaking to a few people including some who are extremely big in the game, I was over it. They told me to get over it and get used to it; they also informed me that it would get a lot worse. After going on to say that pictures a lot worse of Tyra Banks, Halle Berry, Lil Kim etc got out and didn't stop them, I thought FOR REAL! Do I really care? The fact that they are going out of their way to get pics of me and the fact that they are pretending to be me, setting up email accounts in my name etc, just shows how well I am doing. If I was nothing would they not be indifferent? So I went from being pissed off to being excited that I seem to be following in some of the biggest stars footsteps! lol. So let it continue. I guess it's free exposure.

I was youtubing and came across this video clip; which further confirmed to me that it is all part of the "fame game" and is inevitable; people will always try to hurt you or stop you on your road to success. It is sad but it is true.

So thank you Meagan Good; this is from a charity campaign but the first half really related to what I am talking about, and the rest is just useful advice anyway! Which I am sure all of my readers already know.



So I guess I've just got to take it all in my stride and also ignore it; it's a good thing I haven't got time to sit there and go through all my Google hits, lol. Though I am sure it is mostly good you never know....but does something negative said about you by someone who doesn't even know you mean anything?

Any of you girls, and guys in fact, that experience any type of unfair nastiness, or even freaky stalkers lol (yep, I have obsessed stalkers) DON'T WATCH IT. I promise you, it really means you are doing your thing! And clearly they are not! Or they wouldn't have time to fixate on you or try so hard to tarnish your image.

It's all good ;)

The date of my event is the 7th December. More details to come...But keep that night free....Make sure!

I have a couple of meetings about tv programs and films, so that is great. I promise I will update you but I just don't like to talk about things until after I've done them lol. I'll be like "Oh and check me out on this program" ;)

I was really annoyed because my video blog on Yo!Raps got deleted; well all of their videos did but it's been uploaded again now so you can check it out here.

http://www.yoraps.com/blogs1.php?subaction=showfull&id=1226403869&archive=&start_from=&ucat=25&

There will be another one up in a few days for you.

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Just found out I am a judge for a fashion contest

http://fashioncontest.co.uk/thejudges.html

All the other judges are hugely successful and extremely knowledgeable about fashion and the fashion industry, so I really hope to learn a lot from them. I also feel privileged that my opinion is regarded as highly as theirs! Judging isn't for a while though; but time flies these days so it will be happening before you know it. You can still get involved in the contest and there are some amazing prizes which include getting involved in Wimbledon Fashion Week, so I suggest you check it out.

Anyway guys, I'm gonna love you and leave you because I have 101 things to do before making my way back to London.

"You are better; the best even. The rest even know that which is why they strive to opress you; they know the only way they can stop you is if they kill your own will to succeed. But like MC Hammer; they can't touch you"

xx

Monday 17 November 2008

Hilarious!!


A friend of mine emailed me this and I just had to post it up; I find it hilarious and today has been a day full of soooo much amusement that I wanted to share at least some of the joy. Thanks Tunde!



A Young man called Ron wanted to buy a Christmas present for his new girlfriend. They hadn't been seeing each other for very long and she lived a considerable distance away.

He consulted with his sister and
decided after careful consideration, that a pair of good quality gloves would strike the right note, not too romantic and not too personal.

Off he went with his sister to Harrods ladies dept and
they selected a dainty pair of fur lined quality leather gloves. His sister bought a pair of knickers for herself at the same time.

Harrods had a free gift wrap offer but the assistant mixed up the two items, the sister got the gloves and Ron got the knickers.

Good old Ron sent
off his gift wrapped present in a parcel with the following letter:


To my sweetheart,
I chose these because I've noticed that you are not wearing any when we go out in the evenings.

If it had not been for my sister I would have
chosen the long ones with buttons, but she wears shorter ones (which are easier to remove).

These are a very delicate shade, but the lady I bought them from
showed me the pair she had been wearing for the past three weeks and they were hardly soiled at all. I had her try yours on for me and she looked really smart in them even though they were a little bit tight on her.

She also said that they rub against her ring which
helps keep it clean. In fact she hasn't needed to wash it since she began wearing them.

I wish I was there to put them on for you the first time, as no doubt many other hands will touch them before I have a chance to see you again.

When you take them off remember to blow into them a
little bit because they will be naturally a little damp from wearing.

Just imagine how many times my lips will kiss them during
the coming year.

I hope you will wear them for me on our next date.


All my love
Ron.

P.S. My mum tells me that the latest style is to wear them folded down with a little bit of fur showing.


Looooooooooooooool. Funny right?

Seriously, I have been amused all day; some people/situations are hilarious. I love laughing, and today people have been giving me the x amount of reasons to do just that! Hilarious.

So, I want all of my readers, to have a little giggle. Go on! Think about all the things that amuse you or make you laugh! Think about something ridiculously funny and crack up. You'll feel so much better after, whether you were already in a great mood or not.

You only live once! Make sure you're laughing through most of it ;)

Portia xx

Ummm p.s. I'm not saying that little story was thaaaat funny. But I am sure you can find something that is xx

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Sunday 16 November 2008

Chelsea is too funny; and T.I too cute!

I never used to find him that nice; my girl was always in love with him and I never really saw the attraction.

But after this clip I think I've changed my mind! How adorable is he? And he doesn't look as scrawny as he used to cos that was what used to put me off him. I'm feeling his attitude as well; he can laugh at himself and I like that.

Shame he's in a "situation" lol ;)




Saturday 15 November 2008


I wonder what will replace Sex And The City?

Nothing, I believe

It's a good job I don't get bored of watching the episodes over and over. But I have to admit, I am kinda panicking! What do we do now? It's only really sunk in for me!!

It. Is. Over

Call me late, perhaps I was in denial for a while, and too busy to really be too affected.

But now I'm in shock!!

Even Family Guy, All Of Us, America's Next Top Model; they are all weak replacements

I can only weep, and hope, that they realise how much this is affecting us all and bring it back!

Who wants to start a petition? Oh I bet there are already plenty on the net. Let me go and check and join....

Friday 14 November 2008

Do I have Problems??


Right now I feel Happy, Upset, Confused, Excited, Amused, Eager, Impatient, Patient, but oh SO GOOD!

I love it and I hate it! It's like having constant butterflies in your stomach....Aaaaaahhhh!!

Anyway, apparently I have problems. I CANNOT relax.

Here's an example;

I had a FULL PAMPERING DAY booked at the Spa yesterday. I was supposed to be there from 9am until 5pm.

So, I woke up around 7.30. Well in actual fact, I woke up at 5:45 cos I couldn't sleep, then went back to sleep kinda, but got out of bed at half 7.

My plan was to have a quick shower, eat some porridge, then go straight to the Spa.

But of course I had to send a couple of emails first. C'mon!! Be fair! So after showering, I sent and read a few emails. A few emails led to a few more, then a few more. Anyway, I didn't actually reach the Spa until 10am, but luckily just in time for my first treatment; a full body massage. An hour of luxury right? Wrong. I could not relax! I was thinking about the event, and the emails I had read, and wondering if things were ok.

Then my phone starts vibrating in the pocket of the gown I had hung up.

My therapist is like, "Portia, you can keep your phone in the dressing room, I promise you it will be safe as it is only your dressing room and noone will go in!"

I'm like "No you don't understand, I NEED my phone on me. I WANT my phone to stay here with me. Got it?"

Looking at me like I'm crazy, my therapist continues to massage me.

"Vrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr vrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr vrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr"

Yep. Phone vibrated the whole hour.

As soon as she's like "Ok all done" I jump up, grab my gown, and get back to the missed calls.

So my therapist is already thinking I'm a freak.

Then, I had to bloody get off my phone so she could give me a facial. I couldn't wait for the foot massgae, so I could multi-task.

I have to admit though; that was one amazing face massage. I fell asleep!

During lunch, I realised that I really should try to relax for the rest of the day. So I had a glass of wine, and tried to not feel guilty that I was getting pampered whilst my PA worked her arse off

I spoke to my girl, she's like "Portia. This is WHY you have a PA. Just flipping relax. How can you feel guilty for your PA doing her work? You NEED a break so you can frigging function. You are not normal."

Friends always tell it how it is

So I'm thinking ok, cool.

Got my foot massage and IGNORED my phone.

Got a manicure and IGNORED my phone

Pedicure, same thing

But then I realised what I was doing to compensate; I was boring the flipping therapist, talking away non-stop about bloody work!

But I don't think she was that bored actually; she seemed to be enjoying all the madness I go through. She even told me that I've inspired her to follow her dream! She said she wants to help children with behavioural problems, and thanks to me she's gonna go for it!

Once I got my eyebrows done, I'm told I've got an hour to go for a steam, jacuzzi or whatever, before they start on my hair and do my make up. Ummmm....

Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat????

See ya later!

I was off!!

I practically ran back to the dressing room, mad at myself for already getting carried away with this whole "relaxing" thing

The therapist is calling after me, like don't I want the rest of my treatments?

Errr NO!

Despite all this, I had a lovely day. Seriously.

SERIOUSLY I DID!

There's just too much to be done that's all. And BlackBerry's really screw you up because your work follows you EVERYWHERE.

Anyway, this goes to those out there that find it hard to relax; just read my post and see how crazy it sounds. You'll soon wanna chill out more

And for those of you who find it easy to chill out

Whatever

;)

Portia xx

WTF????


This industry can be mad.

Let me rephrase that; Success can be mad.

It seems that with every good thing that happens, something bad follows.

The more things that happen for you, the more people suddenly pop out of nowhere, wanting to be your new best friend.

Now I am not a naive person; the only people who I tell everything to are the ones I grew with, my closest friends.

But I am sick and tired of fake arse people.

Sick and flipping tired, of giving so much to people, then them turning around and stabbing me in the back.

Sick and tired, of people just wanting to be associated with me, because apparently I can "help" them.

My ex used to always tell me, that I get too close to people. I'm too cool and friendly, and not suspicious enough.

Well why should I be? I thought like attracted like; I'm cool to them and be a good friend to them, then they'll do the same right?

Ha!

How right was he. He said I 'm naive. I've realised he's probably right.

Well not anymore. I've had more than enough. I'm dropping a few people.

Things are on the up for me. Besides my friends, I need a team I can trust,a team to grow with. I now understand why some people who are mad famous go crazy. They probably don't know who to turn to, or who to trust. It's mad, everyone probably thinks they are so happy and popular, but I've seen it for myself, they're not. I would hate to be that famous.

What a shallow world we live in.

What a shame that I am already experiencing the rubbish that all this can bring.

Anyway.........

As I'm writing this my mood has already changed. I'm a bit weird like that. I can't stay upset for long, even if I am hurting like mad. Even if I am so so angry, it only lasts a second. Life's too short! And there's too much good happening! So, I had a lot more to say on what I was just talking about, I was going to elaborate, but I can't be bothered now! I'm over it!

I'm gonna post up all the details of my event coming up very soon! I can't wait! I haven't organised an event for a while; it's about bloody time I did another one!!

Have to go

Portia xxxx

Thursday 13 November 2008

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