Still recovering... :(

I didn't sleep a wink last night I was in so much pain. Then I spent the whole of today in hospital which was a nightmare but my girl stayed with me the whole day which I am very grateful for. Without best friends you will not get through a single thing.

I'm upset because I've had to miss Juice magazine's private launch party tonight. I've also missed out on a lot of work, shoots, meetings; I was supposed to meet up with some people that had flown down from the States for tonights party as well. Well I guess there will be other times and rather than focus on what I am missing out on I'm gonna have to just focus on getting better

I'm tired already from trying to write so I will have to get back to you later.


Sorry to be such a bore; I promise after I've had my rest and recovery time I will come back with a bang ;)

Love ya

P xx

Recovering....

I'm a bit down at the mo....had an operation yesterday and now I really do not feel myself and I am unable to get on with certain things. I'm angry with myself for letting it affect me more than I thought it would, but I'm sure that after a couple of days chilling out I will soon be back on the road.

My launch party went really well despite the fact that I was 4 hours late! It really was not intentional; I've sent out apologies to all my supporters and 99% of them understand lol. The other 1% said that they will never forgive me! Even when I did arrive I was a bit distant as I had yesterdays op on my mind...But a big thank you to all of those that came; especially those that came at 7 and actually waited untill 11.30pm for me to arrive just to meet me. That is real support and it got me a bit tearful lol. But maybe that was because I was emotional anyway.

My "rock" came with me yesterday and has been an absolute Godsend looking after me since. I really am counting my blessings right now.

I guess all there is for me to do right now is search for my holiday destination and recover....

P xx

Haven't been very well...but a surprise made it all better!

I haven't been very well recently; plus I've had a lot going on and stuff happening that is beyond my control; plus my PA is taking time off for unforseen circumstances so you can imagine that everything is a bit mad right now! I think it's safe to say that I have kinda been neglecting my work...kinda... but you know what it can't always be the most important thing to me and I've needed/still need time to recover so.....

The thing is some stuff in my work just can't wait. If it is neglected, it fails and I can't afford that. So I have to keep going on despite not being able to carry on. It's mad. It sometimes makes me hate my job. I've been really really thinking these last couple of weeks....

Anyway, I've had great support from loved ones, especially my closest and most loved friends.

If only you knew how badly I needed a break.....

And then; a very dear friend who I must admit has been a rock to me these last couple of months despite our ups and downs gave me THE BEST surprise EVER last night!
He said I can choose wherever I want to go on a holiday!!!! I was elated! Seriously; it's just what I need. I've been on the net literally all hours of this morning trying to decide where to go but I just can't decide. I had some help from my facebook buddies but I'm still so unsure. I don't want to travel too far as it will only be for 5 days or so; I can't really go away any longer than that unless I wait a few months as I have been booked to present a few charity events and host a couple of gigs so I have to squeeze the break in somewhere in between!

As I was saying to my pals;

"I need some winter sun! And it needs to be BAKING so I am guaranteed a healthy looking glow! lol. And preferably a hotel with great spa facilities. And it has to be on, or right near a beach. Somewhere that is a quiet retreat but not too far from night life if I feel like a little dance! And lots of scenic walks and history/culture. But I'm not fussy or anything! looool. Seriously I am so indecisive it's killing me. And nothing is ever quite right....HELP!! xxxx"

Lol! Any suggestions?

Anyway I'm off to a meeting that I believe will prove to be very worth my while so let me start getting prepared. I won't elaborate; I now have a Members Only diary that I update so only my Member's know the little ins and outs...of a lot of things; personal and business. Cool huh?

Ciao!

Oh and don't be jealous of my little break; I was thinking somewhere in the Caribbean or a gorgeous European city..... ;)

P xx

Sometimes, if I close my eyes and imagine hard enough, I am on a beautiful, deserted beach.

I can't hear anyone

To my love.....

Happy Valentines xx

More Fool Them!

Isn't it a shame how a rare few just don't realise your worth?

Oh well. Good thing there are many more who do ;)

Here's to moving on....

Everyone makes mistakes.

I guess we can also hurt people without meaning to. We can also be really hurt, and although we know that person did not mean to do so, it doesn't take away the pain.

Sometimes it doesn't matter how much someone apologises, or tells you they didn't mean it, or that they would never do anything to upset you again. Sometimes it's never enough to take the pain away.

Only you are capable of doing that. Only you can finally get over something and realise that the past is the past and always will be the past.

But what you can do is learn from your experiences; learn from your hurt and learn from the effects your actions had on others.

And then it somehow becomes something beautiful. You reach an understanding and you realise that nothing, or noone else matters.

The ugly past no longer affects your beautiful present

You forgive. And you are forgiven

Here's to moving on

Here's to lazy days!

Everyone keeps calling me and messaging me to apologise for not coming out the other night! They all said if they're honest they weren't tryna get stranded in a snow blizzard for nobody! Loool if it wasn't for some still making the effort despite the flipping snow, I wouldn't have turned up myself!

Ok so the new date is the 17th Feb, Vendome, Knightsbridge. More details coming soon...

If I'm honest I feel quite sick and rough right now; on top of that my friend managed to fracture his knee, so unless I'm going to go and help him out I don't see myself doing much physically today

Here's to lazy days!

P xx

Rescheduled! Typical!

It hasn't snowed like that in how many years and it decides to on the day of my pre-launch for my website!! I was so pissed off I wasn't even going to turn up!! But a few people had made it down; some had flown from Paris and even the States just to see me, so I knew I still had to go down....Lets just say it was not one of the best nights I've had, but certainly not the worst. After getting through about 7 bottles of champs I started to lighten up! And Shereen-Crystal, a friend and amazing singer got on the mic and gave us goosebumps with her beautiful voice.

After everyone had left a few of us stayed in for a lock-in and continued to dance away; the DJ seemed to leave the best music for our little private party which didn't make much sense to me. Oh my goodness I adored the bongo player; he was fantastic!

Can you believe we then were stranded in the club because no taxi's would come out in the snow and noone wanted to drive! In the end I ended up paying a random guy who was the club owner's friend to make the dreaded journey; we actually got stuck trying to get up Richmond Hill and the car was swerving and sliding everywhere!

But........

My OFFICIAL website launch will be on Tuesday 10th, and hopefully this time there won't be a snow storm! There will be models from Brazil auctioning clothes and a fashion show, better weather, better vibes ;) I guess everything happens for a reason. Though I can't really understand why this had to happen lol. I feel bad because I didn't really mingle last night but it's only because I arrived so late and was dealing with loads of little things when I arrived and to be honest I felt quite agitated; the photographers were getting on my nerves (sorry guys) but getting snapped all the time gets annoying when you just want to chill out. So I think it's safe to say I wasn't the loveliest person...but understandably ;)

Anyway just make sure you make it down on Tuesday 10th and I promise you you'll have a fantastic night.

And I'll be in a better mood















I think I have pneumonia after a shoot I did on location; it was absolutely freezing but I had to just take it and strike my poses, trying not to shiver too much. Just seen some of the shots and they look hot so it's all worth it. The torture us models go through! The photographer was Squiz Hamilton; he's so talented and I love working with him.

Gonna cook some food now sweeties

Ciao

Portia xx