MAJOR Ups and Downs....But It's All Good!

Been a mad last few days. A mixture of very very bad stuff and extremely good stuff. I suppose that's supposed to balance things out? But it doesn't, not really. The really bad stuff just breaks me down, but all the good stuff keeps me going.

>I was feeling like shit; couldn't sleep, and I was so annoyed as I had been asked to be a guest presenter for Pop-Rocktic goes Hollywood and I had to miss all my beauty appointments the day before because I was recovering at my friends....

But, that leads onto the really good stuff. Have an amazing new PA who I couldn't be more happy with. I was panicking that I wouldn't be completely sure on any of my finalists as that is what I am like..But this one passed her trial with flying colours. So that's one thing to be grateful for.

Another? The fact that my hair is sponsored by Adee Phelan http://www.adeephelan.com/ Check out their clientele and their press; they are an extremely well established hairdressers in London. And now Lorraine, who has won an award for Southern Hairdresser of The Year, will be looking after my hair. Lorraine's clients include Erykah Badu, Sean Paul, Thandie Newton, Solange, SugaBabes to name a few. And now moi! lol. So I was hooked up for Pop Rocktic last night; got some subtle highlights which looked really cool; apparently they are going to go brighter on me next time! Well I trust them because they're fantastic stylists so I'll leave them to it! Hit me up for my stylists number, or check out the site, give them a call and mention me; I'm sure they'll hook you up.

I was a bit of a diva for the event last night; had 4 changes! One for filming,two for stage and one for after. I was dressed by Pinx; they dress a lot of celebs and WAGS lol. The woman Yan, knows exactly what she is doing and hooked me up with some dresses that were new in. At first I wasn't entirely convinced by the pictures my PA forwarded me, but when I went to the store for my fitting the clothes were beautiful; the pics did them no justice. And the clothes are so reasonably priced; check them out online http://www.pinxonline.com/

Last night was amazing; I was so impressed by the talent. Oh my days where do I start. Jnay was off the hook!! And Jason Jermaine rocked the crowd as usual. I had a fantastic time.

I did some backstage interviews with the both of them, and also with Charleene Rena who is a wicked performer; very provocative and energetic; all the guys (and I am sure even a few girls) were in some kind of trance, lol. So look out for the interviews on either Diva Diaries, or Yo! Raps, or my website PortiaFreno.com.

Lot's of backstage footage got filmed, but as you know, that is MEMBER'S ONLY ;) I got a little tipsy at the end, and yes, it got filmed. So if you want a laugh, sign up and I'll notify you when it is all live. But well done to Rochelle Bennet and her team for organising something so positive and successful. Can't wait for the next event.

I had a lot to do last night, filming for Yo! Raps which was separate to the event, and obviously due to the incident that happened prior, I was feeling distracted. But I tried to put it to the back of my mind and just enjoy myself.

Most of my team were there; my PA, the stylists, my film guy, and my photographer, so I had a good time and a laugh. I got Jay Stewart on camera, and he likes to remain faceless, so he's begging me not to post up the footage....Hmmmm I feel a little bribe coming...

My first vid blog for Yo Raps will soon be up! I'll make sure I let you know as soon as it is.

My images from my last shoot in Miami arrived, and there are about 1800! So I've started to go through some for my merchandise and my Member's....You will not be disappointed ;)

So many of you are hitting me up regarding the modeling workshops; I promise I will get back to you all. I'm sure you understand things are just hectic at the moment. The next date will soon be confirmed.

Oh and finally, and most certainly least, looooooooooooooool to all the messages I've been getting for the last couple of weeks. I know, and I agree, that this chick is crazy. She is flipping OBSESSED! It used to annoy me that she was copying my every move and word, but now it just creeps me out!! I too feel sorry for her. You saw the latest right? Loooooool. Poor thing.

WE CAN ACHIEVE SO MUCH MORE IF WE JUST ACCEPTED THE WAY WE ARE, RATHER THAN BEING ATTACHED TO THE WAY WE WOULD LIKE TO BE

In this case, the way she would like to be is me! Which would be flattering if it was someone that I liked or respected. But what a loser. And for what the majority of you are asking me; the answer is no, not at all. Pathetic huh? Damn, this girl should be paying me!! And what a BEG FRIEND. And I hate that saying. But it fits her perfectly. Awww, let her do her thing, I'm sure when she looks in the mirror and realises she doesn't know her own identity, she must feel a little shame. Because noone in their right mind can do what she is doing and not feel any shame. Girl where is your self-respect!! And if all of you, my fans, supporters, friends are hitting me up regarding this embarassing situation, I know that it is not me or my problem.

Anyhoo...gonna go back to these merchandise shots

Sorry that my blog started off on a bad note, oh and ended on one lol, but I'm just keeping it real with all of you. If I am totally honest it left me feeling suicidal, but I realised, with the help of my friends, and work commitments that kept me occupied, that my future is too bright to waste on jealous ex boyfriends or haters.

Do your thing! Forget the haters or negativity! What doesn't kill you will only make you stronger. Apparently. To be honest my body is killing me right now and I'm feeling pretty weak. But mentally, I can take over the world ;)

I love you

Portia xx