Setting The Record STRAIGHT

So,the story goes like this:

I've always had haters, I'm sure most of you reading this have. No matter what line of work you are in, you will have haters.

Definition of a hater:Someone who is jealous and envious and spends all
their time trying to make you look small so they can look tall. (Thanks to Maya Angelou)

Before I elaborate, let me raise a few very valid points about haters.

Haters can’t stand to see you happy,
Haters will never want to see you succeed,
Haters never want you to get the victory,
But most importantly......Most of our haters are people who are supposed to be on our side.

How do you handle your undercover haters?

You can handle these haters by:

1. Knowing who you are & who your true friends are *(VERY IMPORTANT!!)

2. Having a purpose to your life. Purpose does not mean having a job;You can have a job and still be unfulfilled. A purpose is having a clear sense of what God has called you to be. Your purpose is not defined by what others think about you.

3. By remembering what you have is by divine prerogative and not human manipulation

Fulfill your dreams!

You only have one life to live…...when it’s your time to leave this earth,
you want to be able to say, ‘I’ve lived MY life and fulfilled MY dreams… Now I’m ready to go HOME!'
When God gives you favor, you can tell your haters, 'Don’t look at me…Look at Who is in charge of me…’

Haters are very negative people to say the least. Nothing is ever good enough! When you make your mark, you will always attract some haters…That’s why you have to be careful with whom you share your blessings and your dreams, because some folk can’t handle seeing you blessed.

So..... I hope now that some of you are more clued up about haters and how to deal with them? And for those who are my haters and reading this blog, as you do avidly, realise that you are your own biggest hater! That's not good!

Ok, so a hater has been broken down... let me continue with my short story.

So, for over a year now I think, personal pictures of me, pictures which I have never published or taken for any commercial or entertainment purpose, pictures which are strictly for myself and of course my lucky man, have been posted up all over the internet including my fan pages and social network sites. Someone even went as far as to open new accounts in my name, email addresses, social sites and post up all these pictures.

Now these pics are not images that I would want anyone but myself or my man to see.

How did such personal pics get out you ask?

I was booked to appear at a club in Kensington one evening. I went with my girl, but stupidly not with my PA at the time. In fact the first thing the manager said to me when I got there was "Where's Rebecca". I had told her not to worry coming, that I was going to behave and she wouldn't be needed.

The reality is the club got me extremely drunk. Ok, I got myself drunk. But Belvedere Vodka mixed with endless champagne is a guaranteed formula for a drunken state right?

Anyway the whole night was a blur, my personal belongings were left on my table. Usually Rebecca would have been there and she would stay sober, my things would be safe etc etc. But being the silly cow I was, I left them on the table and danced the night away. I remember at one point even leaving the VIP and hitting the main dance floor, so yes, my bag was just...there.

Anyhoo, woke up the next morning on Lisas sofa. Now most of the time my phone is with me and literally the second I woke up (dry mouthed and hungover) I had that horrible sinking feeling you know you get when you know you've lost something? I just knew instantly I had lost my phone, oh that feeling in my stomach, it was horrible! I rang it immediately and it actually rang. No answer.... then about 20 minutes later, mobile phone switched off.

I literally cried instantly cos what hurt me the most is I had such personal family stuff on there, like video footage of good memories,jus vids u crave to watch again, you know? Endless pics....

And of course, not before long, my personal pics started to get posted up.

They were naughtyISH pics, yes, but they were MY naughtyISH pics. (They werent actually that bad, coulda been a lot worse!) What I do for my man or in my spare time has nothing to do with anyone else. Yet I put myself in the public eye with my line of work so I guess I will have to explain things from time to time. I dont think I mentioned or wrote a blog when the images first started getting posted up; my PA literally saw to it that they were removed as quickly as they were put up, and after talking to a couple of big names in the industry, who reminded me of HATERS and how it is a reflection of MY success, I felt better. I knew there was literally nothing I could do about it anymore; they had my pics, the pics were out there.

"Sighs"

I stopped feeling sorry for myself and instantly felt sorry for the poor girl that was doing this

Girl; why did I make you so mad? I'm sorry xx

Anyway, that was aaaages ago and things went quiet for a while as far as the images went. And I continued to work, NEVER doing a topless shoot, not doing cheap shoots or anything distasteful, and apart from one or two "favours" YEARS ago never doing videos. Even the ones I did do were not degrading, I was fully clothed etc.

I have made my name by being choosy and respecting myself and not falling into the typical urban model category; tell me when you saw me at a typical UK model event? Don't for a second think I'm putting UK models down, cos that is far from what I'm doing, but anyone who is being honest knows the UK model industry is slipping. Besides, money talks, and it doesn't talk loud enough in most videos, features, underground gigs etc, as far as I'm concerned.

So recently after interviewing Tevin Campbell, I passed through a photo shoot that was taking place and was asked to do a quick interview for Nothing But Talent. I'll be the first to say it wasn't my best interview; I had the flu, had had little sleep as had found out about the Tevin interview literally the night before and had had to stay up researching. No excuses, but I'm my biggest critic and no it wasn't an award winning interview lol. I was ill, tired, but most importantly; IT WAS JUST A QUICK FRIENDLY CHAT.

I was waiting for the haters comments, but damn; at least some constructive criticism! The classic had to be the person who said excitable wasn't a word. Oh no, the classic had to be the one who after clearly sitting there watching me for 10 minutes, turned round and said "Wheres the lingerie then, shes making it up", after I had clearly said I'm hoping to launch it at the end of the year BUT I AM NOT RUSHING ANYTHING; I LIKE TO DO THINGS RIGHT. Who must I rush for, you? Nope, sorry, if I rush it's for myself..... and it's not gonna happen!

Wait for it though...... just when I thought that was hilarious, I get "She does do topless modelling, oh and Ive seen her tatto on her arse"

BITCH PLEASE; Show me these PUBLISHED, PRINTED and USED images that are topless. The images posted up were the same images from my phone, sent to my man, that were posted up after my club booking and phone loss. So obviously I assumed it was the same person. Which means.....

This bitch has had a vendetta against me for OVER A YEAR

WOW!!!!!!

It has to be someone close to me right? Someone who has had access to my lappy; someone maybe who even smiled and faked it out and danced the night away with me that night.

Aspiring high-achievers, hardworkers, successful peeps; BEWARE. People just wanna see you fall

Damn!! Life is crazy

Oh and something else to set straight;

I didnt say I had recorded with Leona Lewis, I said I had been in the studio and watched big artists and producers at work, meanwhile being inspired to write my own content. I was in Atlanta the same time as Leona. Not that big a deal.


I had had a real bad day and when I saw the images posted up again I will admit, as much as I hate to, that I felt quite upset. Hatred is EVIL. I might have been just a bit of a bully in school (hey it's be the bully or get bullied right?) but constant mean antics and spiteful behaviour, its just not necessary.

Corny moment time.....

SPREAD THE LOVE

Of course I was inundated with messages of support, and I was literally feeling better quite quickly; like my girl Xian said "Fuck A Bitch thats gotta hide behind a PC and cuss you" ;)

My man sat me down and I swear the way he reasons with me is something else. He's a blessing to me and if I'm being honest I'd be lost in many ways if I didn't have him to keep me sane! He reminded me what a greedy, competitive, envious and pathetic industry I am a part of; he said he's never understood why someone like me is even in it! But it's not all bad. Like my wise friend Toya said; you just have to find the meaning and purpose in everything you do. Just because the majority of those that surround us in this fake industy are exactly that, fake, doesn't mean I can't still shine and take whats good from it.

Obviously I've achieved more than the sad cow that's been plotting against me ever has or ever will.

So why was I affected yesterday?

Am I becoming too nice? Am I dropping my mask? Or am I starting to feel incomplete?

This experience has given me a new idea to add to my workshops though. Yes my modelling workshops. I'm not a bitch like many others; can you believe girls message me on facebook asking why I would want to teach other girls stuff that they could then use against me? Can you believe it? Do they not all realise that we can all shine? I can give you my tips, my advice, my help, equip you, start you off, etc, but then it is also up to that person to be wise enough to use my advice and make it their own. The way anyone else shnines will never be the same way I shine. We all glow differently, I guess. We all have something different to offer. Yes, we are all lightbulbs Portia.

Some people are clearly not switched on though; I know that much

So, lesson learned readers;

BE WORRIED WHEN YOU HAVE NO HATERS. Trust me. It's sad, but it's true. Only then be worried.

Keep your head down, remember YOUR purpose, do not allow yourself to be socially created, keep striving. Allow yourself off days, you are allowed to slip up, you are human. Just make sure you learn from the blip, change direction if necessary, but KEEP IT MOVING. Make every day a learning day.

Remember, every day is a good day, even the bad ones. Sometimes you NEED the worst shit to happen to you, and for your whole world to come crashin down, in order to rebuild and reach your full potential. Its a blessing xxxx

Portia xx

Oh, and you can watch the interview below, or check outhttp://nothingbuttalent.blogspot.com/2009/11/nbt-hook-up-with-portia-freno-for-chat.html to read comments from both supporters and haters. Haters, feel free to leave more comments, pictures etc, always welcome ;) I'm sure NBT would also like to thank you for the mad hits they've experienced since my interview; I'm good for business! Love ya all xxxx

Nothing But Talent

Nothing but talent catches up with Portia Freno to catch up with her life, touching on her modelling, her lingerie line, her music, her playstation skills and her thoughts on the industry in general




Check out Nothing But Talent's site. They've got some great features and interesting posts.....Spread The Word! http://nothingbuttalent.blogspot.com/2009/11/nbt-hook-up-with-portia-freno-for-chat.html

I DID IT!!

Hahahahahaha I stuffed my face the same as usual and still managed to lose weight and fit into all of the clothes! It's all in the mind I tell ya!





For those of you who need updating; I had a high fashion shoot but it clashed with my calendar shoots. Obviously I wanted to keep my curves for my calendar but when I got booked for such a great designer I knew I couldn't turn it down; the stylist was even flying down from the States! It was only two days before the shoot that I realised I wasn't quite SKINNY enough! I hadn't been shooting much besides the calendar, the rest of my time had been spent on my business ventures. And Im sure I mentioned my boyfriends comments on the fact that my bum was growing by the day (no complaints ladies, no complaints)





So the first evening I was soooooo good. Kinda.





Had fish and lots and lots of salad; spinach, rocket, avocado, tomato and a boiled egg.





Half an hour later I was STARVING. So I naughtily DEVOURED half of ONE of my birthday cakes. Yes, one. I had a few. Well not at this point actually; a couple had already been eaten.





Anyway I'm sure you know how the rest of the story goes; blah blah blah I continued to eat like there was no tomorrow; even managed one or two double cheeseburgers. I just dont know where it all goes, because come the day of the shoot and I had already lost weight (maybe it was the stress or worry??) Some of the pieces were even ever so slightly big for me.... not a good look.





But hey, gotta get paid right? And I felt really privileged to work with such talented people. I learned so much. The other model booked was a columbian model called Margerita; she was lovely. Such long limbs! I just had to put my A game on and prove that height IS NOT a factor.







In a next post I will introduce you to the creative team





So now I need to put weight on really quickly because I want ALL my curves back to finish my images for my 2010 calendar. It's a shame it had to go on hold but I didn't wanna shoot being skinny; not attractive as far as I am concerned!





Tell me; where do YOU prefer me?

Here...



and here...



Or.... here....



And here....



I know what I prefer! Let me know!

By the way, these images have not been edited or touched up at all; when I receive the touched up ones and the ones being used by the designer I will post them up for you


I am also very happy to announce that I have joined forces with Societe Noir; a big and expanding international lifestyle company. I am now an associate and I will be working on my workshops with them





I have had so many messages asking why I am not tweeting as much; besides the fact that I do not have ubertwitter on my BB right now, I have too much to do. There's more to life than twitter! lol. I'm serious! No honestly! Lol, I know you aren't all that bad, but not having ubertwitter is great right now. I didn't realise how much of your concentration it can use up; despite the fact that you can be working as you are tweeting.







So yes, I am alive but no, I'm not a twitterholic anymore. And I did it all without rehab :)





Lata potata





Keep striving high cos trust me; it's ALL worth it! Even the hard times are good times





Lioness xx

Watup people?

So I've been booked for a big high fashion shoot! See! I told you height does not matter! You've followed me in my career and watched me do runway shows, high fashion shoots etc. But now you're about to witness some madness;

I've got a day and a half to go down a dress size

Hmmmmmm

As you know I've been really happy to have got my curves back; my man kept telling me my arse was getting bigger daily and of course I'd just smile and walk with an extra swing of the hip. Noooooow I NEED to be lickle bit so I can fit into this designers clothing! I've already lost a bit of weight over the last few days, not because I've been trying because I've been stuffing my face as always, but my weight has always been up and down anyway.

But I'm not quite an 8 yet, and I need to be a SMALL 8 by Friday.

The stylist has even flown in from America; I really want to deliver and give them the best shots. That will all go down hill if I don't even fit in the clothes! lol

I was really happy when I was contacted for the shoot. I was told the designer is in love with my portfolio and loves my look and has been considering me for her next shoot for a while. I was also told that the stylist from the States has been hoping to work with me and is flying over! Cool stuff. I will be shooting with one other model; 5 ft 10, skinny, stunning; you know the type. So I really have to have my A game on.

It was my bday the other day so I've been eating sooooo much cake and drinking a bit too much alcohol. So it's detox time I think.

Oooooh let me brief you on my bday. I only wanted a quiet one as it's only my 23rd and to be honest now wasnt the time for distractions what with so many deadlines.

I told my friends NO RAVING

I even told my man, who had booked dinner at Nobu and then a table at a club, "No thanks".

He misinterpreted this as me being an ungrateful bitch! But he spends so much flippin money on me all the time and he had spent so much on my present I didn't see the point in wasting another grand on alcohol and food.

What I did instead was so beautiful :)

I went to the screening for a friends new film at The Gate in Notting Hill; soooo my kinda thing, followed by some drinks on Portobello rd with friends and then danced the night away at The Arts Club. The truth is I wasnt even dressed up; polo neck and jeans! I had only planned to walk down to the screening, the rest wasnt planned but I had such a fantastic time. The music was great; no commercial ish. I got so drunk though; shame on me :0 I got recognised numerous times which was nice but also embarrassing cos I was so wasted and I'm not sure what I said to them. Looooool. Then my man and I had a quiet one in with a few bottles.....you know the rest ;) Well actually it started off as a party in my bedroom; I think I'm a DJ (which I'm learning to be) and was playing the soulful Funky, then switched it up and gave him some Hip Hop...good times.

BUT. The BEST part of my birthday? My Chloe bag ;) Oh I should have taken a picture. I will post one up for you. I can't believe my man spent £1250 on a bag. To be honest it's not the price that touched me as much as the fact that he picked it himself and went to great lengths to choose the perfect bag for me. Awww I love him.

So that is a brief on my birthday. Hahaha I've got some funny stories to tell you (oh the shame) but I will hit you up in a next post.

I feel a bit overwhelmed with my deadlines that sometimes I'm not sure where to start! I've been given 5 new tracks to write to for various artists including myself, I have another shoot to do for my calendar cos I changed my mind about 7 of the images! I've just teamed up with a big lifestyle company; my workshops are about to change and they are gonna be BIG. More info on that soon.

I am currently seeking PR interns, song writers, graphic designers and photographers, so spread the word

I should be at the 50 cent Premiere tomorrow; it all depends on whether my mum comes down to visit or not

Will tell ya the rest another time

Keep ya mind right and your body tight

Portia xx

Cake made by FreeLayLay. Look out for news on her soon to be published book!

My journey.....

Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy :)

Just updating you quickly...........................

My 2010 calendar will soon be available; going through some more images as I type this.

I'm working hard on the new lingerie collection; it's a lot right now. My in-house designer is a great inspiration and fantastic to work with

I just took on a new intern who is jumping on board with pr and marketing. Her CV was extremely impressive and I knew within 10 minutes of sitting down with her and giving her the Portia interrogation that she was going to be an asset to Portia Freno™

Things are moving along nicely. I'm taking my time; sometimes even stopping and changing direction. I feel like I'm on a mad journey right now. Ive been struggling a little; everyone around me thinking they know me and trying to push me in their direction, the vision they had for me. I found myself kinda nodding and agreeing; so many people on my side yet I felt so lonely.

So I kinda took time out. I don't even really mean time out of work, but time out in my mind. That's hard to explain and might sound crazy to you all right now, but I guess to put it simply I blanked out. Blanked out and thought about ME. Best choice I ever made. I got rid of the shit and the people just riding my dick, wanting to jump along for the ride. I got rid of the pressure that I had put on myself feeling like I had to please everyone. And I feel great! Dropped a few projects so I had more time to focus on the main and important ones and also more time to find myself and God.

I think it is easy to misintepret who you are; we sometimes base our judgement on what other people think. I think in this industry it is easy to be socially created but what is so important is that you find yourself. And in order to do that you have to appreciate that your life is a journey and you will discover and learn new things about yourself along the way. Some journeys are rocky, some are smooth; it can't always feel like the trip of a lifetime, but ultimately, believe me, it will be ;)

So, I am still on my journey and right now I'm enjoying it. I'm only half sure of where I'm going, but I guess that's part of the fun. At least I certainly know where I am not going!

I've been spending a bit of time in the studio, writing songs and also tryna build up my confidence when it comes to my voice and my sound. Exploring different sounds/genres. Got some great producers on my side so I feel blessed for that. Also thinking about getting involved in the management of a hot new artist. Listen out for more details.....

I interviewed Tevin Campbell the other day for Portia Presents. Had the flu and found out about the interview the night before but oh well, went just to meet him really. He was actually jokes and revealed some home truths about the industry. Tevin kept it real! Bumped into my girl Toya Berry there as well; she's doing her thing. Check out her blog. http://toyaberry.blogspot.com/. Straight after I had to dash to a video interview with Nothing But Talent. I will update you on my latest interviews/features soon

Bumped into Geek Squad!

I think another reason why I feel so blessed is because I have had more time for loved ones recently. They say behind every successful man is a strong woman; and that is indeed true, but I also believe us career driven, dominating, power women need that sweet romance, that blissful love and lets not forget just the comfort of cuddles at home, with that special person. You can work on your career but if you neglect those you love who are you gonna reap the rewards with?

The first range in my lingerie collection will represent that kind of woman; strong and sexy, powerful, but not too dominating; still classy, sweet, playful. Can't wait to share ;)

I'vebeen having a lot of fun filming, brainstorming and getting creative. It's all about carefully selecting who you keep around you. Without sounding like the snob I sometimes get called before the person meets me, it's true. With the right people behind you (and God) you'll always feel inspired, you'll always grow and work won't feel like work.

Oooh the other day me and my darling went on a date. He'll argue and say it wasn't a date because of how long we have been together but I don't hear that shit. I put my diamonds in my ears and make the extra effort of applying make up same way. I get excited. What? Gotta keep the good old romance.

We went to Crazy Bear for dinner (divine) and I went to Gordon Ramsays restaurant "Maze" for the first time. We got wasted! Good times. Then his boys met us there and we continued on to Ghost. First time I've been there too. Not bad! Good music and not too ram. I spent the next day nursing his hangover. Poor thing. I felt like a mother. Overall a success. That was the first time I'd stepped in a club in goodness knows how long

My head often feels like it's gonna explode what with it feeling like I'm constantly working on proposals and marketing plans but I'm not complaining.

God is good ;)

Got more to tell but have to go through some images from a shoot today and also from from last week.

Oh, I did a shoot for phytospecific the other day to be featured in Black Hair magazine. I just thought I'd tell you how amazing these hair products are. You need to get hold of them. They are available at the Hair Lounge and can be ordered over the phone 0208 969 9444. Ask for Charlotte Mensah, celebrity stylist. Tell her I sent ya and she might do a deal! I first came across the product when my hair sponsors http://adeephelan.co.uk/ introduced them to me. Ever since using them my hair has been like Indian hair! I also sported a kinda afro in the mag so look out for that! My hair is nuts!

Anyway sweetie pies

Speak again soon

Big shout out to Nutty Nrg and Ask Your Girl

http://twitter.com/PortiaFreno

Don't forget to follow me on Twitter. Today I gave a step by step guide on preparing yourself and getting photoshoot ready in less than an hour, no matter how bad the hangover! I got a lot of tweets of appreciation so I intend on doing that more often! I was actually doing the things I was tweeting myself as I had just been informed of a last minute shoot. That can happen at any time and you need to be ready!

Ciao for now

xx P xx

This butterfly cloud was sent to me as I lay in Holland Park. It was beautiful

Something to think about.....

Noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo. I broke my promise!! Haha it's been way over a week hasn't it? Well sorry!!!! At least I write one sometimes! If it's any consolation I have been updating my secret diary in my Member's Only Section of my website, so if you feel you're missing out you know what to do!!

I have a mad love/hate relationship with this industry. But I'm not going to bang on or elaborate right now. I will be scheduling a live chat about it in my V.I.P section of my website and will pose a few questions beforehand for you to think about prior to the chat.

How are you all? Chasing dreams? Having faith? Striving high? I hope so. The world we live in now forces us to believe that to be successful is to be rich, or famous, or known by those "worth knowing". It isn't. Success is happiness and contentment. As long as I feel those things I couldn't give a damn who deems me "successful". This media culture will have you believe unless you're driving the fastest car, living in the biggest pad and mingling with all these celebs, you're not successful. People GET OUT OF THIS DREAM WORLD. Find your own reason to be happy, realise you ARE successful simply because you manage to deal with the everyday struggles of life and come out on top. You ARE successful because you kept your family well and healthy. You ARE successful because you raised a child. You are successful because you fought through an illness, or you graduated. You are successful for being you. Turn off your TVs. You won't miss a thing. You've seen Beyonce in that leotard before; it was just a different colour. You know that half of those rappers are liars, and should take up acting instead. You've heard it all before.

Focus on YOURSELF

Now is a very important time to believe in God. It has always been an important time, but now more than ever we are being tested. Have faith. Have morals. Be practical and ask yourself if the rubbish you are focusing on and making a regular part of your lives, is it really important?

Learn to love, share and cooperate and when you have learned to truly do that teach others to do the same

Search for a book called "That book". Not sure if you can still get hold of it, but try

Prioritise

Learn to love and support, rather than hate and compete

We are sharing one world; is it possible we are sharing one dream?

Peace

Portia Freno x

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Check out my "Celebrity Special" feature for The Trusted Beauty Guide! Get advice on diet and exercise. I also reveal some of my beauty secrets. Thanks for reading xx

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Just For You....

Can you spot the rainbow? xx

Well well well! I'm not even sure what to say..... I feel so guilty, honestly! Quite a few of you have been telling me off for abandoning my blog. Some have messaged nicely wondering when the next post will be. Others have sent me hate mail because I haven't updated. I find it really funny; "HOW DARE YOU NOT KEEP US POSTED YOU STUPID BI*@H". Lol. Funny thing is I'm not kidding. Luckily though, the majority have been nice, so nice in fact I feel obligated to write this. Unfortunately it's another quick one as I just stepped off a plane and I've got 101 things to do before hosting a party tonight. I feel shattered I'm telling ya. Happy, relaxed, but shattered.
So obviously I can't go back to the 90's or whenever it was that I last wrote a blog, so I will, in my next post as I have to go back out soon, try to fill you in with bits and bobs. Before I do that though, can I just make you aware of my late, or early, New Years resolution? To write a blog at least once a week. So the second you catch me slipping feel free to nag. Just not as rudely as some of the peeps mentioned earlier. Oh what the hell be as rude as you like. It's a free world.

Ok so I just got back from Antigua! I don't think anyone on that island will forget me. Not sure if that's good or bad. Had some shooting out there and also a nice little break though to be honest not a lot of chilling was done. Ok ok I'm guilty of not being able to relax; what's your point? Ya'll relax too much KMT. No but seriously guys you'd be proud; I didn't use my blackberry, didn't Tweet every 5 minutes, abandoned my emails, correction; most emails. Only spoke to those it's absolutely impossible not to cos if I don't chat to them I might just die (hopeless romantic) I planned on detoxing out there but I may have possibly ate more than I miraculously do here in London. Food was greeaaaaaat. Damn! Talking about the food already.

I had to do one of the shoots without make up on. And when I mean no make up on I mean NO make up on. Not the "we're gonna put on a lot of make up but do the natural look so it looks like you're not wearing any". NONE. I mean c'mon, at least a base coat or something? But no, nada, niente. That was challenging. Done a few like that, but this one was quite frustrating; hanging off random things in the immense heat, not able to keep my eyes open because of the sun and my exhaustion. Tryna pull off all the different looks without any make up to accentuate my features. But I've already seen a couple and I'm more than happy; shocked even. I suppose that's when you can really call yourself a model; when you pull off a successful shoot with absolutely zilch to cheat with but yourself. Just you, yourself and your skin lol. Not sure when I'll be able to post up pics but keep checking the blog.





Damn it's midday; I've got a lot to do. There really should be more hours in the day. The mad thing is it's the first time in ages that I've actually found the time to sit down and write a blog, and I haven't the time to sit down and finish the blog! lol. Consider this a short and sweet apology.........forgiven?

Portia xxxx

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Where do I start? It has been a blur of parties, preparation, work and madness!









I was booked for a couple of appearances at events and also to host a few parties so it's fair to say I have had little sleep. Last week at Vendome was crazy; I'm quite ashamed to say I got rather tipsy; after 2 bottles of Grey Goose and a bottle of Champs the club refused to send any more drinks to my table! I was horrified! But ever so grateful the next morning when I realized what more alcohol would have done to me. TQ came down, Kano came down and performed, Bashy showed his face. Monday nights really are getting packed in there; it's madness.






To be honest the whole raving scene isn't my favourite thing, but I'm getting paid to party so can hardly complain. But it is hard work! I'm serious! Especially when you're ill but have to soldier through. I've had tonsillitis for the past 2 weeks! lol but haven't had a chance to rest it off. And I refuse to take all those government drugs; that crap that masks the pain but doesn't naturally solve the problem, so I was just dealing with it. It was only 2 days ago, when I left my friends house, that I left with a bottle of Benilyn that he put in a plastic bag for me. He said the stuff would knock me out! I believed him cos he's always drowsy on some kinda rubbish like that. Usually I lecture him for overdosing on all his medicinal substances (he has a whole windowsill full of drugs) but I was feeling so rubbishy and it was late and I wanted to just knock out as soon as my head hit the pillow. So I took one or two teaspoons.... Damn....the next day I was like a zombie! I felt soooo tired; not sure if it's worth it! The same friend offered to drop me round soup and dvd's but I said no thank you. I felt bad as he has a bad shoulder and should be resting himself! Not driving around playing Superman!

On Sunday I went to the Summer Ball!! It was so much fun! And at my favourite stadium ;) (Emirates) Over 55,000 people came to watch artists such as Leona Lewis, Dizzee Rascal, Alesha Dixon, Ciara, Akon, Shontelle, Sway, JLS, Lionel Richie, Calvin Harris, The Noisettes, Mark Ronson and many more. I was on the vip balcony with all the artists, though the only one I was excited about seeing was Ciara; she's hot. Is it bad that one of the highlights for me was the food? I love my food and the food was great, lol. Oh apart from the chicken. A little seasoning would have been welcoming.....

As usual Leona brought a tear to my eye with her rich silky tones, and Alesha impressed me with her stage performance; I'm not a huge fan of her but she has my respect; she's good at what she does and she owned that stage! And I don't even need to mention the Noisettes; love their style!

As usual Akon had to receive the biggest welcome and threw himself into the crowd as he always does. Lol. He's mad. His dad found it hilarious when he was being thrown up and down by the audience. His father is a lovely man; I spent a bit of time with him as it was the first time I'd met him.




Another highlight; walking into the celebrity gift lounge. I decided to walk in alone knowing that if I walked in with Akon they would only give me stuff cos I was with him, or they would ignore me and concentrate on him! So I thought let me walk in and see what the deal is...... So I walk past the first table counting 5....4.....3....2.. "Hi there Portia" YES Thank Goodness! Lol. If I didn't get stopped I woulda been pissed. The people are explaining their product to me, this product, that product, dropping a load of stuff into bags for me and I'm thinking there are some homeless broke starving people out there that would really appreciate this rubbish. These rich celebrities do not need all this stuff yet they get it on a daily basis! Don't get me wrong, I know it's free promo for the brands but it still feels a little wrong. Anyway after signing several guest books thanking them for the goods I spotted Sony giving away the brand new mobile phones. So I walked past slowly.....did anyone stop me? NO! And I'm proud; there was no way I was stopping unless I was stopped lol. So I kept it moving. I was asked my sizes for various shoes and clothing and I am getting sent some goods. And I can't wait for my pink Aviators. I tried on the brown ones but the pink ones looked hot in the pic so they said they would send me some. Cheers. Oh and I also got a load of Mac goodies ;)

But again, the highlight for me was the food

Did I mention that I am off to the Bahamas next month? No? Well, I am off to the Bahamas next month. You know now ;)

Can't wait!!



Writing this is taking longer than expected because I keep flippin coughing!

I haven't been working out...............what???? I haven't had the time plus I've been ill; I wouldn't be able to breathe if I jumped on a treadmill right now!!

My mum and sisters came down to a London a couple of times; the minute they leave I miss them immediately. My sisters bring me joy.... they are my precious little princesses! With attitude! lol. Maya has an obsession with photography right now; she's only 5 but so clever and has an eye for detail. She really is something else. The other day we went down to my girls allotment to help her water her little cabbages and brocolli lol and my sister kept grabbing my blackberry so she could take pics of flowers. And she's such a flippin perfectionist it takes about 5 minutes to take each shot. Aww I love her. I'm gonna invest in a really good professional camera for her when she's older. She's only 5, maybe it's a bit soon lol. Though I'm sure she'd actually master it; she's that intelligent.

I am actually looking for a new manager. I'm tired of trying to juggle everything alone; it's hard to get certain things moving when your time is divided multiple ways. I had to drop old management because they didn't share the same vision as me. And if I don't mentally click with someone it's not going to work. So next week I will be setting up some meetings, etc as this week I haven't got the time.

I wanna go and make a hot drink; maybe with a little pick me up in it ;)

Thank you to all those who voted for Charity Skin Deep and hit me up on FaceBook; appreciated

Portia xx

Get To Voting!!!

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World Star Hip Hop; Being Charlie Sloth

Check me out on the show; over 1121382 views already!!! Can you believe it? Madness. Anyway the show is big and if you don't watch it regularly you really should start. Charlie is big in the game and is guaranteed a lot of success. He caught up with me at an Adidas exhibition. I had a cold but still managed to make it down as it was good for networking and Ara made sure I did plenty of that! He also tried to cause a bit of a stir by promoting the vid as "Portia and Charlie Sloth kissing" lol and according to some of the viewers Charlie and I have been dating for over 6 months! lol. See Ara! That's how rumours start! Happy watching and leave your comments xx

Thank you baby. To us xx

This girl thinks like me..... I'm loving it!

Puppies, Parties and......Portia ;)

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Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeey!

I'm in such a good mood!! Lol, just finished singing and dancing around my room; you know what I'm talking about girls; hairbrush or remote as a microphone, banging out the dance moves. I'm so so so so tired but so so so so excited about things I can't talk about but can most definitely think about and get excited about lol. I've had butterflies for the last couple of days but that's another story..... ;). That's more of a personal thing but because of the butterflies I haven't been able to sleep a wink. Usually I don't sleep cos my minds just buzzing buzzing buzzing but for the last couple of days there has only been one thing on my mind.....

It's funny how things turn out.......... ;)

Anyway, I should probably brush on my last couple of days.... Ok I can't even remember lol. Ummmmm.... Ok....Oh yes! Well the usual really; but only one shoot since my last blog. (I think that was only a fey days ago) Did 2 interviews/features. Didn't work out. Actually worked out once. Ate a load of donuts and chocolate.....



On Monday I went straight from a "workout" in the gym down to my boys studio to catch up. Although an artist himself, he was working on a track for/with a boy group who I have to say have great talent. I had never heard of them before and still haven't managed to check out their stuff but I listened to them record a whole track and they are all wicked singers and lovely lovely people so I wish them and know they will get all the success possible. They are called Frixion so check them out! Can I quickly add that during that time my producing skills came to light and I discovered I had yet another talent lol! But I'm not actually joking! I just don't stop lol. I'm gonna do an engineering course anyway; I'm working on my music so I might as well produce some of my own tunes as well

Sorry I just had to take a quick break. I just had to go hard to Donaeo; it's a Funky Movement! Ok I'm back now.... Ok after recording was over we had a quick listening session and I got to hear some EXCLUSIVE stuff from the biggest group about to hit the music scene HARD; FDM, as well as some Neyo tunes that none of you have heard! Aren't you jealous? I know Neyo pissed me off not too long ago but oh my goodness that guy has mad talent. And the boys are heading in the same direction. Many of you probably already know about FDM and if you don't you're about to know. They recently got signed to Neyo! I'm sooooo excited for them as I know they have been on the scene for a while now and deserve everything that is coming their way. They are crazy talented, can dance AND sing (at the same time lol) and have a certain vibe about them that means they will always stand out from the rest. It's mad how exciting it is when something so exciting happens for someone else close to you! Well I predicted it anyway, lol. Well done boys...well done V ;) They are touring with Neyo and Kerri Hilson very soon; check out their site and get the tour dates; the first London show is already sold out so hurry hurry hurry! I can't explain to you how dope their album is..... http://www.myspace.com/fdmonline



So anyway the listening session was a little treat for me. I love listening sessions anyway; have had a few with artists such as Kardinal Offishall, Akon, Ray Lavender and I have had the pleasure of spending time with them in the studio recording, as well as Leona Lewis, so I'm fortunate to have been able to spend time with such musically talented people. I mean Akon and Kardinal Offishall...don't judge just what you hear them release themselves..... Akon is controlling about 70% of urban music; if he's not on the track he produced the track lol. And Kardinall Offishall; he's big, trust me. A lot of people's talents remain behind the camera; but that's because most of the time that's where the money is..... ;)

After getting home from the studio at about 3am I was on the phone until about 7am! Then I had a cold shower and got straight back to work! Nutter!!

I was supposed to meet up with Akon over the weekend; not just for a catch up with a very close friend but because I wanted to interview him for Portia Presents. Despite him being a good friend I won't hold back with the questions; many of you have emailed me with questions you want me to ask him and don't worry, I will! Most of it I already know anyway.... but I will just have to act surprised when he answers. Anyway, I didn't end up meeting him and a lot of my Twitter and Facebookers know why...... because just before I was on my way my friend called me sayng he had made me an apple crumble! Well c'mon what would you do???? I mean I was shattered anyway and I thought it was such a sweet gesture that I though oh what the heck, meet me at my house lol. Awww J I love you sweetie, you know me too well ;)

Anyway it's not a biggie; I'll get the interview wrapped up over the next few weeks.

I am also looking for up and coming talent to interview for the show, though I am being selective, hit me up!!



I keep having to stop writing so that I can dirty dance to the slow jams that keep playing! I think I should change the cd now..... Ok I'm locked into Kiss! Oh even worse.... now I'm tryna fight temptation to sing and dance to Destiny's Child! Love them.... Get back together get back together!!!!

Ok my darlings I have to go; two of my girls just turned up plus I just remembered I've left a crumble in the oven! (I just don't stop) I'm tryna put some weight back on though! I've gone from a 10 to an 8 and I'd feel like a 10yr old if I went even smaller to a 6; yuk! Luckily my bum hasn't gone but it's heading that way if I don't start getting some more sleep and less stress!

Love you all ;)

Keep your mind right and your body tight!

P xxxx



No make up, no sleep and check out my swollen eye!! :(