My journey.....

Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy :)

Just updating you quickly...........................

My 2010 calendar will soon be available; going through some more images as I type this.

I'm working hard on the new lingerie collection; it's a lot right now. My in-house designer is a great inspiration and fantastic to work with

I just took on a new intern who is jumping on board with pr and marketing. Her CV was extremely impressive and I knew within 10 minutes of sitting down with her and giving her the Portia interrogation that she was going to be an asset to Portia Freno™

Things are moving along nicely. I'm taking my time; sometimes even stopping and changing direction. I feel like I'm on a mad journey right now. Ive been struggling a little; everyone around me thinking they know me and trying to push me in their direction, the vision they had for me. I found myself kinda nodding and agreeing; so many people on my side yet I felt so lonely.

So I kinda took time out. I don't even really mean time out of work, but time out in my mind. That's hard to explain and might sound crazy to you all right now, but I guess to put it simply I blanked out. Blanked out and thought about ME. Best choice I ever made. I got rid of the shit and the people just riding my dick, wanting to jump along for the ride. I got rid of the pressure that I had put on myself feeling like I had to please everyone. And I feel great! Dropped a few projects so I had more time to focus on the main and important ones and also more time to find myself and God.

I think it is easy to misintepret who you are; we sometimes base our judgement on what other people think. I think in this industry it is easy to be socially created but what is so important is that you find yourself. And in order to do that you have to appreciate that your life is a journey and you will discover and learn new things about yourself along the way. Some journeys are rocky, some are smooth; it can't always feel like the trip of a lifetime, but ultimately, believe me, it will be ;)

So, I am still on my journey and right now I'm enjoying it. I'm only half sure of where I'm going, but I guess that's part of the fun. At least I certainly know where I am not going!

I've been spending a bit of time in the studio, writing songs and also tryna build up my confidence when it comes to my voice and my sound. Exploring different sounds/genres. Got some great producers on my side so I feel blessed for that. Also thinking about getting involved in the management of a hot new artist. Listen out for more details.....

I interviewed Tevin Campbell the other day for Portia Presents. Had the flu and found out about the interview the night before but oh well, went just to meet him really. He was actually jokes and revealed some home truths about the industry. Tevin kept it real! Bumped into my girl Toya Berry there as well; she's doing her thing. Check out her blog. http://toyaberry.blogspot.com/. Straight after I had to dash to a video interview with Nothing But Talent. I will update you on my latest interviews/features soon

Bumped into Geek Squad!

I think another reason why I feel so blessed is because I have had more time for loved ones recently. They say behind every successful man is a strong woman; and that is indeed true, but I also believe us career driven, dominating, power women need that sweet romance, that blissful love and lets not forget just the comfort of cuddles at home, with that special person. You can work on your career but if you neglect those you love who are you gonna reap the rewards with?

The first range in my lingerie collection will represent that kind of woman; strong and sexy, powerful, but not too dominating; still classy, sweet, playful. Can't wait to share ;)

I'vebeen having a lot of fun filming, brainstorming and getting creative. It's all about carefully selecting who you keep around you. Without sounding like the snob I sometimes get called before the person meets me, it's true. With the right people behind you (and God) you'll always feel inspired, you'll always grow and work won't feel like work.

Oooh the other day me and my darling went on a date. He'll argue and say it wasn't a date because of how long we have been together but I don't hear that shit. I put my diamonds in my ears and make the extra effort of applying make up same way. I get excited. What? Gotta keep the good old romance.

We went to Crazy Bear for dinner (divine) and I went to Gordon Ramsays restaurant "Maze" for the first time. We got wasted! Good times. Then his boys met us there and we continued on to Ghost. First time I've been there too. Not bad! Good music and not too ram. I spent the next day nursing his hangover. Poor thing. I felt like a mother. Overall a success. That was the first time I'd stepped in a club in goodness knows how long

My head often feels like it's gonna explode what with it feeling like I'm constantly working on proposals and marketing plans but I'm not complaining.

God is good ;)

Got more to tell but have to go through some images from a shoot today and also from from last week.

Oh, I did a shoot for phytospecific the other day to be featured in Black Hair magazine. I just thought I'd tell you how amazing these hair products are. You need to get hold of them. They are available at the Hair Lounge and can be ordered over the phone 0208 969 9444. Ask for Charlotte Mensah, celebrity stylist. Tell her I sent ya and she might do a deal! I first came across the product when my hair sponsors http://adeephelan.co.uk/ introduced them to me. Ever since using them my hair has been like Indian hair! I also sported a kinda afro in the mag so look out for that! My hair is nuts!

Anyway sweetie pies

Speak again soon

Big shout out to Nutty Nrg and Ask Your Girl

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Ciao for now

xx P xx

This butterfly cloud was sent to me as I lay in Holland Park. It was beautiful