Do I have Problems??

Right now I feel Happy, Upset, Confused, Excited, Amused, Eager, Impatient, Patient, but oh SO GOOD!

I love it and I hate it! It's like having constant butterflies in your stomach....Aaaaaahhhh!!

Anyway, apparently I have problems. I CANNOT relax.

Here's an example;

I had a FULL PAMPERING DAY booked at the Spa yesterday. I was supposed to be there from 9am until 5pm.

So, I woke up around 7.30. Well in actual fact, I woke up at 5:45 cos I couldn't sleep, then went back to sleep kinda, but got out of bed at half 7.

My plan was to have a quick shower, eat some porridge, then go straight to the Spa.

But of course I had to send a couple of emails first. C'mon!! Be fair! So after showering, I sent and read a few emails. A few emails led to a few more, then a few more. Anyway, I didn't actually reach the Spa until 10am, but luckily just in time for my first treatment; a full body massage. An hour of luxury right? Wrong. I could not relax! I was thinking about the event, and the emails I had read, and wondering if things were ok.

Then my phone starts vibrating in the pocket of the gown I had hung up.

My therapist is like, "Portia, you can keep your phone in the dressing room, I promise you it will be safe as it is only your dressing room and noone will go in!"

I'm like "No you don't understand, I NEED my phone on me. I WANT my phone to stay here with me. Got it?"

Looking at me like I'm crazy, my therapist continues to massage me.

"Vrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr vrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr vrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr"

Yep. Phone vibrated the whole hour.

As soon as she's like "Ok all done" I jump up, grab my gown, and get back to the missed calls.

So my therapist is already thinking I'm a freak.

Then, I had to bloody get off my phone so she could give me a facial. I couldn't wait for the foot massgae, so I could multi-task.

I have to admit though; that was one amazing face massage. I fell asleep!

During lunch, I realised that I really should try to relax for the rest of the day. So I had a glass of wine, and tried to not feel guilty that I was getting pampered whilst my PA worked her arse off

I spoke to my girl, she's like "Portia. This is WHY you have a PA. Just flipping relax. How can you feel guilty for your PA doing her work? You NEED a break so you can frigging function. You are not normal."

Friends always tell it how it is

So I'm thinking ok, cool.

Got my foot massage and IGNORED my phone.

Got a manicure and IGNORED my phone

Pedicure, same thing

But then I realised what I was doing to compensate; I was boring the flipping therapist, talking away non-stop about bloody work!

But I don't think she was that bored actually; she seemed to be enjoying all the madness I go through. She even told me that I've inspired her to follow her dream! She said she wants to help children with behavioural problems, and thanks to me she's gonna go for it!

Once I got my eyebrows done, I'm told I've got an hour to go for a steam, jacuzzi or whatever, before they start on my hair and do my make up. Ummmm....

Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat????

See ya later!

I was off!!

I practically ran back to the dressing room, mad at myself for already getting carried away with this whole "relaxing" thing

The therapist is calling after me, like don't I want the rest of my treatments?

Errr NO!

Despite all this, I had a lovely day. Seriously.

SERIOUSLY I DID!

There's just too much to be done that's all. And BlackBerry's really screw you up because your work follows you EVERYWHERE.

Anyway, this goes to those out there that find it hard to relax; just read my post and see how crazy it sounds. You'll soon wanna chill out more

And for those of you who find it easy to chill out

Whatever

;)

Portia xx