Check Out My Celeb Status!!

Just a quick one cos I'm mad busy and about to head out; There is an exclusive charity fundraiser for breast cancer coming up that I got invited to, it's being covered by OK mag, and I just looked at the event page and there I am listed as a confirmed celeb attending! Celeb huh?? Loool. Loving it ;)

Check it here and scroll down

http://www.skiddle.com/whats-on/London/20-Kensington/Carolines-Campaign-Celebrity-Fundraiser-Event-/11260688/

Things are moving

Got so much to write about but no time! There was a madness with Jagged Edge the other night as well but you will just have to wait :(

Oh, but come and party with me this Sunday; I've been asked to host a night at 20 in Kensington and it will be really good! I'm going to go there after passing through the Sunday Show.... For more details and to get on the guestlist check my facebook or contact my PA Rebecca Riley  RebeccaRiley@hotmail.co.uk

Love ya

Ciao xx

Hey lovely people!

I have come to accept that I have a problem; I seriously suffer from insomnia.

Even though at times I might feel excruciatingly tired I still can't sleep. So I find myself up working, or listening to music.

I wouldn't mind so much because I don't tend to need too much sleep to be able to function, but I am also a model and in front of the camera a lot; whether it's a photoshoot or filming, I can't be having eye bags!!

I might go on a little break straight after the event; just a few days. Dubai or something. Well I need to get that holiday glow back anyway!

It's been a crazy last couple of days. Or maybe strange is a better word to use. Some things have been very upsetting, some have been annoying, but because of work and so much other stuff going on I've been unable to really let it get to me, and also unable to keep you guys updated.

What really, really did get to me though, is when a very nasty person played an evil trick on me;

She pretended that a friend of mine had passed away.

What kind of screwed up mess is that????

For 30 long, awful, devastating minutes, I was left to believe it. I do not feel to get into the emotions that I went through myself and for the family; all I will say is that some people really need to go and see someone. Urgently. But then for people that messed up; is there any hope? I felt sick with disgust.

Talking about mental people; I've had more than my fair share of them this week! I've had more fake profile's set up, and hear the latest! A fake email address in my name! Yes! PortiaFreno@gmx.com. Funny right? It's even funnier because my people know who it is, so we do feel very sorry for her, but at the same time it is a hassle to think that they are emailing people pretending to be me.

I was discussing it with a few people, including Sarah-Jane Adams, a journalist and editor-in-chief for Flair magazine, who said that even though everyone says imitation is the highest form of flattery, she sees it as the lowest form of unoriginality.

Totally agree.



I've also been having some discrepancies regarding some of my images; it seems that some of my Member's Only and also personal pics of mine have got out. My team got onto it straight away but there is only so much they can do; they can't find every single site that they are on!

I was pissed off for like 5 minutes, but then after speaking to a few people including some who are extremely big in the game, I was over it. They told me to get over it and get used to it; they also informed me that it would get a lot worse. After going on to say that pictures a lot worse of Tyra Banks, Halle Berry, Lil Kim etc got out and didn't stop them, I thought FOR REAL! Do I really care? The fact that they are going out of their way to get pics of me and the fact that they are pretending to be me, setting up email accounts in my name etc, just shows how well I am doing. If I was nothing would they not be indifferent? So I went from being pissed off to being excited that I seem to be following in some of the biggest stars footsteps! lol. So let it continue. I guess it's free exposure.

I was youtubing and came across this video clip; which further confirmed to me that it is all part of the "fame game" and is inevitable; people will always try to hurt you or stop you on your road to success. It is sad but it is true.

So thank you Meagan Good; this is from a charity campaign but the first half really related to what I am talking about, and the rest is just useful advice anyway! Which I am sure all of my readers already know.



So I guess I've just got to take it all in my stride and also ignore it; it's a good thing I haven't got time to sit there and go through all my Google hits, lol. Though I am sure it is mostly good you never know....but does something negative said about you by someone who doesn't even know you mean anything?

Any of you girls, and guys in fact, that experience any type of unfair nastiness, or even freaky stalkers lol (yep, I have obsessed stalkers) DON'T WATCH IT. I promise you, it really means you are doing your thing! And clearly they are not! Or they wouldn't have time to fixate on you or try so hard to tarnish your image.

It's all good ;)

The date of my event is the 7th December. More details to come...But keep that night free....Make sure!

I have a couple of meetings about tv programs and films, so that is great. I promise I will update you but I just don't like to talk about things until after I've done them lol. I'll be like "Oh and check me out on this program" ;)

I was really annoyed because my video blog on Yo!Raps got deleted; well all of their videos did but it's been uploaded again now so you can check it out here.

http://www.yoraps.com/blogs1.php?subaction=showfull&id=1226403869&archive=&start_from=&ucat=25&

There will be another one up in a few days for you.



Just found out I am a judge for a fashion contest

http://fashioncontest.co.uk/thejudges.html

All the other judges are hugely successful and extremely knowledgeable about fashion and the fashion industry, so I really hope to learn a lot from them. I also feel privileged that my opinion is regarded as highly as theirs! Judging isn't for a while though; but time flies these days so it will be happening before you know it. You can still get involved in the contest and there are some amazing prizes which include getting involved in Wimbledon Fashion Week, so I suggest you check it out.

Anyway guys, I'm gonna love you and leave you because I have 101 things to do before making my way back to London.

"You are better; the best even. The rest even know that which is why they strive to opress you; they know the only way they can stop you is if they kill your own will to succeed. But like MC Hammer; they can't touch you"

xx

Hilarious!!

A friend of mine emailed me this and I just had to post it up; I find it hilarious and today has been a day full of soooo much amusement that I wanted to share at least some of the joy. Thanks Tunde!



A Young man called Ron wanted to buy a Christmas present for his new girlfriend. They hadn't been seeing each other for very long and she lived a considerable distance away.

He consulted with his sister and decided after careful consideration, that a pair of good quality gloves would strike the right note, not too romantic and not too personal.

Off he went with his sister to Harrods ladies dept and they selected a dainty pair of fur lined quality leather gloves. His sister bought a pair of knickers for herself at the same time.

Harrods had a free gift wrap offer but the assistant mixed up the two items, the sister got the gloves and Ron got the knickers.

Good old Ron sent off his gift wrapped present in a parcel with the following letter:


To my sweetheart, I chose these because I've noticed that you are not wearing any when we go out in the evenings.

If it had not been for my sister I would have chosen the long ones with buttons, but she wears shorter ones (which are easier to remove).

These are a very delicate shade, but the lady I bought them from showed me the pair she had been wearing for the past three weeks and they were hardly soiled at all. I had her try yours on for me and she looked really smart in them even though they were a little bit tight on her.

She also said that they rub against her ring which helps keep it clean. In fact she hasn't needed to wash it since she began wearing them.

I wish I was there to put them on for you the first time, as no doubt many other hands will touch them before I have a chance to see you again.

When you take them off remember to blow into them a little bit because they will be naturally a little damp from wearing.

Just imagine how many times my lips will kiss them during the coming year.

I hope you will wear them for me on our next date.

All my love Ron.

P.S. My mum tells me that the latest style is to wear them folded down with a little bit of fur showing.


Looooooooooooooool. Funny right?

Seriously, I have been amused all day; some people/situations are hilarious. I love laughing, and today people have been giving me the x amount of reasons to do just that! Hilarious.

So, I want all of my readers, to have a little giggle. Go on! Think about all the things that amuse you or make you laugh! Think about something ridiculously funny and crack up. You'll feel so much better after, whether you were already in a great mood or not.

You only live once! Make sure you're laughing through most of it ;)

Portia xx

Ummm p.s. I'm not saying that little story was thaaaat funny. But I am sure you can find something that is xx

Chelsea is too funny; and T.I too cute!

I never used to find him that nice; my girl was always in love with him and I never really saw the attraction.

But after this clip I think I've changed my mind! How adorable is he? And he doesn't look as scrawny as he used to cos that was what used to put me off him. I'm feeling his attitude as well; he can laugh at himself and I like that.

Shame he's in a "situation" lol ;)

I wonder what will replace Sex And The City?

Nothing, I believe

It's a good job I don't get bored of watching the episodes over and over. But I have to admit, I am kinda panicking! What do we do now? It's only really sunk in for me!!

It. Is. Over

Call me late, perhaps I was in denial for a while, and too busy to really be too affected.

But now I'm in shock!!

Even Family Guy, All Of Us, America's Next Top Model; they are all weak replacements

I can only weep, and hope, that they realise how much this is affecting us all and bring it back!

Who wants to start a petition? Oh I bet there are already plenty on the net. Let me go and check and join....

Do I have Problems??

Right now I feel Happy, Upset, Confused, Excited, Amused, Eager, Impatient, Patient, but oh SO GOOD!

I love it and I hate it! It's like having constant butterflies in your stomach....Aaaaaahhhh!!

Anyway, apparently I have problems. I CANNOT relax.

Here's an example;

I had a FULL PAMPERING DAY booked at the Spa yesterday. I was supposed to be there from 9am until 5pm.

So, I woke up around 7.30. Well in actual fact, I woke up at 5:45 cos I couldn't sleep, then went back to sleep kinda, but got out of bed at half 7.

My plan was to have a quick shower, eat some porridge, then go straight to the Spa.

But of course I had to send a couple of emails first. C'mon!! Be fair! So after showering, I sent and read a few emails. A few emails led to a few more, then a few more. Anyway, I didn't actually reach the Spa until 10am, but luckily just in time for my first treatment; a full body massage. An hour of luxury right? Wrong. I could not relax! I was thinking about the event, and the emails I had read, and wondering if things were ok.

Then my phone starts vibrating in the pocket of the gown I had hung up.

My therapist is like, "Portia, you can keep your phone in the dressing room, I promise you it will be safe as it is only your dressing room and noone will go in!"

I'm like "No you don't understand, I NEED my phone on me. I WANT my phone to stay here with me. Got it?"

Looking at me like I'm crazy, my therapist continues to massage me.

"Vrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr vrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr vrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr"

Yep. Phone vibrated the whole hour.

As soon as she's like "Ok all done" I jump up, grab my gown, and get back to the missed calls.

So my therapist is already thinking I'm a freak.

Then, I had to bloody get off my phone so she could give me a facial. I couldn't wait for the foot massgae, so I could multi-task.

I have to admit though; that was one amazing face massage. I fell asleep!

During lunch, I realised that I really should try to relax for the rest of the day. So I had a glass of wine, and tried to not feel guilty that I was getting pampered whilst my PA worked her arse off

I spoke to my girl, she's like "Portia. This is WHY you have a PA. Just flipping relax. How can you feel guilty for your PA doing her work? You NEED a break so you can frigging function. You are not normal."

Friends always tell it how it is

So I'm thinking ok, cool.

Got my foot massage and IGNORED my phone.

Got a manicure and IGNORED my phone

Pedicure, same thing

But then I realised what I was doing to compensate; I was boring the flipping therapist, talking away non-stop about bloody work!

But I don't think she was that bored actually; she seemed to be enjoying all the madness I go through. She even told me that I've inspired her to follow her dream! She said she wants to help children with behavioural problems, and thanks to me she's gonna go for it!

Once I got my eyebrows done, I'm told I've got an hour to go for a steam, jacuzzi or whatever, before they start on my hair and do my make up. Ummmm....

Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat????

See ya later!

I was off!!

I practically ran back to the dressing room, mad at myself for already getting carried away with this whole "relaxing" thing

The therapist is calling after me, like don't I want the rest of my treatments?

Errr NO!

Despite all this, I had a lovely day. Seriously.

SERIOUSLY I DID!

There's just too much to be done that's all. And BlackBerry's really screw you up because your work follows you EVERYWHERE.

Anyway, this goes to those out there that find it hard to relax; just read my post and see how crazy it sounds. You'll soon wanna chill out more

And for those of you who find it easy to chill out

Whatever

;)

Portia xx

WTF????

This industry can be mad.

Let me rephrase that; Success can be mad.

It seems that with every good thing that happens, something bad follows.

The more things that happen for you, the more people suddenly pop out of nowhere, wanting to be your new best friend.

Now I am not a naive person; the only people who I tell everything to are the ones I grew with, my closest friends.

But I am sick and tired of fake arse people.

Sick and flipping tired, of giving so much to people, then them turning around and stabbing me in the back.

Sick and tired, of people just wanting to be associated with me, because apparently I can "help" them.

My ex used to always tell me, that I get too close to people. I'm too cool and friendly, and not suspicious enough.

Well why should I be? I thought like attracted like; I'm cool to them and be a good friend to them, then they'll do the same right?

Ha!

How right was he. He said I 'm naive. I've realised he's probably right.

Well not anymore. I've had more than enough. I'm dropping a few people.

Things are on the up for me. Besides my friends, I need a team I can trust,a team to grow with. I now understand why some people who are mad famous go crazy. They probably don't know who to turn to, or who to trust. It's mad, everyone probably thinks they are so happy and popular, but I've seen it for myself, they're not. I would hate to be that famous.

What a shallow world we live in.

What a shame that I am already experiencing the rubbish that all this can bring.

Anyway.........

As I'm writing this my mood has already changed. I'm a bit weird like that. I can't stay upset for long, even if I am hurting like mad. Even if I am so so angry, it only lasts a second. Life's too short! And there's too much good happening! So, I had a lot more to say on what I was just talking about, I was going to elaborate, but I can't be bothered now! I'm over it!

I'm gonna post up all the details of my event coming up very soon! I can't wait! I haven't organised an event for a while; it's about bloody time I did another one!!

Have to go

Portia xxxx

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Sorry. Just mad busy and stressed.

Is it sick that I love it?

Mind you , couldn't do it without my assistant

Godsend ;)

Oh I'm so excited about the stuff that I am busy with but I can't share sorreeeeeeee

Maybe another day

Peace xx

Oh! And I Forgot To Say....

....Just found out I got the lead female role in a new film.... ;)

Not filming for a while, but I am still mad excited. It's a very challenging role and I can't wait to get started.

Watch this space

BACK TO BUSINESS!

Woke up this morning feeling GREAT. Here's a quote for you guys;



So that's what I am doing. I'm dancing in the rain ;)

(Thanks P)

Ok, so it's back to mad business as usual. I've been working from home for the past few days. Everyone was on at me to stop running around and just chill; obviously I couldn't just "chill" and feel like I wasn't doing anything, so I worked on my Member's Only section of my website. Sarah-Jane Adams, editor of Cause A Scene Magazine amongst many other things (Sarah is a power woman which is why we get on ;) ) is designing my site; I've already seen the template and I'm loving it! People, you NEED to sign up as a Member. You'll get to see exclusive personal video blogs that noone else gets to see, as well as have personal discussions with me. I'll be posting up my deepest thoughts, new sexier images ;) and lots of advice for aspiring models. As well as industry news etc. It'll be really cool. So if you visit my site http://www.PortiaFreno.com and click on the Member's Tab, I'll email you as soon as it's live.




As well as that, just found out I am going to be organizing an event with Napper. It's going to be a showcase and Fashion show. Lots of networking, lots of scouting and lots of fun ;) Of course, I'm getting it filmed, so it may be on Yo! Raps, or the reality show The Diva Diaries. So that's got me mad busy now. I'm really looking forward to it; the date looks set to be Dec 6th but I will keep you posted. Richard Blackwood is hosting so you know it'll be big! I want some great designers for the show; nothing tacky or ghetto. So we are all on the lookout. I will let you know who the PA's are when we decide, book and confirm. How exciting!! So basically, between now and then I'm not sleeping again, cos that's how it always is with events.

I will be holding a casting for models for the event very soon

Looking forward to this weekend; my friend is flying down from New York so we are gonna party hard!

And....my EXCLUSIVE video blog for Yo! Raps is now up! Check it out here

www.yoraps.com/blogs1.php?subaction=showfull&id=1226403869&archive=&start_from=&ucat=25&

Look at me in the same news strip as 50 cent! Loving it. Looooool.

Like I said, it's just the beginning. This is nothing yet ;)

All of you, my friends, my fans and supporters, you got me through this storm. Obviously I'm still upset and hurting, but seriously, it's mad how much love you guys give me. This is my way of thanking you all as I can't thank you all personally. You are great. I love you.

Anyway, let me get back to work

Portia xx

WATCH THE VID, SUPPORT MY GIRL AND SUPPORT US IN THE DIVA DIARIES!!

Ayi Jihu has been named the Chinese Madonna and has performed for over 2 million people. Many predict she will be China's first true crossover artist.

Knowing her personally, I know she will make it to the top. Her energy, dedication, talent and drive will make sure of it. Plus she has a fantastic manager in Stephen Eagle; how could she not make it?

I am working on a reality show with Ayi and I am sooo excited. I feel extremely privileged to have this opportunity, and I will be in China hopefully by the end of the year, to continue with filming and also a few other projects.

Below is her promo vid for "Try Me". And you might see some little snippets from the Diva Diaries too ;)

Enjoy

Portia xx

GHANA HERE I COME!

I miss Ghana :(

The only time I went was for a fashion show for Baby Phat but I had like 9 days to do what I wanted and had soooo much fun. The beach, the people, the food, the clubs. I've been wanting to go back for New Years ever since but have always been too busy. This year I might be in China over NY, but if not, I'm definitely hitting Ghana. I suggest you all do too ;)

Portia xx

It's just one of those days.....

Hmmmm...

One of those days, nights, weeks. I dunno.

THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING....

Just the introduction to my video blog, exclusive to Yo!Raps, which will be live on the site from Monday.

Those who know me personally, know that I look like shit, lol. But this is straight after the incident and 2 straight days of no sleep, so no wonder I wasn't feeling, or looking myself.

Despite all this, I'm still the FIRST model asked to do a regular video blog for the site; a site that is No.1 for industry/celeb/hip hop news.

It's just the beginning baby


Portia xx

WOW

This will make me stay away from the cheeseburgers for a while. Or maybe not. But still. It does put you off temporarily

Still trying to smile Despite the rain

Thank you. You know who you are xx

http://www.zshare.net/audio/5102155557d2982c/

MAJOR Ups and Downs....But It's All Good!

Been a mad last few days. A mixture of very very bad stuff and extremely good stuff. I suppose that's supposed to balance things out? But it doesn't, not really. The really bad stuff just breaks me down, but all the good stuff keeps me going.

>I was feeling like shit; couldn't sleep, and I was so annoyed as I had been asked to be a guest presenter for Pop-Rocktic goes Hollywood and I had to miss all my beauty appointments the day before because I was recovering at my friends....

But, that leads onto the really good stuff. Have an amazing new PA who I couldn't be more happy with. I was panicking that I wouldn't be completely sure on any of my finalists as that is what I am like..But this one passed her trial with flying colours. So that's one thing to be grateful for.

Another? The fact that my hair is sponsored by Adee Phelan http://www.adeephelan.com/ Check out their clientele and their press; they are an extremely well established hairdressers in London. And now Lorraine, who has won an award for Southern Hairdresser of The Year, will be looking after my hair. Lorraine's clients include Erykah Badu, Sean Paul, Thandie Newton, Solange, SugaBabes to name a few. And now moi! lol. So I was hooked up for Pop Rocktic last night; got some subtle highlights which looked really cool; apparently they are going to go brighter on me next time! Well I trust them because they're fantastic stylists so I'll leave them to it! Hit me up for my stylists number, or check out the site, give them a call and mention me; I'm sure they'll hook you up.

I was a bit of a diva for the event last night; had 4 changes! One for filming,two for stage and one for after. I was dressed by Pinx; they dress a lot of celebs and WAGS lol. The woman Yan, knows exactly what she is doing and hooked me up with some dresses that were new in. At first I wasn't entirely convinced by the pictures my PA forwarded me, but when I went to the store for my fitting the clothes were beautiful; the pics did them no justice. And the clothes are so reasonably priced; check them out online http://www.pinxonline.com/

Last night was amazing; I was so impressed by the talent. Oh my days where do I start. Jnay was off the hook!! And Jason Jermaine rocked the crowd as usual. I had a fantastic time.

I did some backstage interviews with the both of them, and also with Charleene Rena who is a wicked performer; very provocative and energetic; all the guys (and I am sure even a few girls) were in some kind of trance, lol. So look out for the interviews on either Diva Diaries, or Yo! Raps, or my website PortiaFreno.com.

Lot's of backstage footage got filmed, but as you know, that is MEMBER'S ONLY ;) I got a little tipsy at the end, and yes, it got filmed. So if you want a laugh, sign up and I'll notify you when it is all live. But well done to Rochelle Bennet and her team for organising something so positive and successful. Can't wait for the next event.

I had a lot to do last night, filming for Yo! Raps which was separate to the event, and obviously due to the incident that happened prior, I was feeling distracted. But I tried to put it to the back of my mind and just enjoy myself.

Most of my team were there; my PA, the stylists, my film guy, and my photographer, so I had a good time and a laugh. I got Jay Stewart on camera, and he likes to remain faceless, so he's begging me not to post up the footage....Hmmmm I feel a little bribe coming...

My first vid blog for Yo Raps will soon be up! I'll make sure I let you know as soon as it is.

My images from my last shoot in Miami arrived, and there are about 1800! So I've started to go through some for my merchandise and my Member's....You will not be disappointed ;)

So many of you are hitting me up regarding the modeling workshops; I promise I will get back to you all. I'm sure you understand things are just hectic at the moment. The next date will soon be confirmed.

Oh and finally, and most certainly least, looooooooooooooool to all the messages I've been getting for the last couple of weeks. I know, and I agree, that this chick is crazy. She is flipping OBSESSED! It used to annoy me that she was copying my every move and word, but now it just creeps me out!! I too feel sorry for her. You saw the latest right? Loooooool. Poor thing.

WE CAN ACHIEVE SO MUCH MORE IF WE JUST ACCEPTED THE WAY WE ARE, RATHER THAN BEING ATTACHED TO THE WAY WE WOULD LIKE TO BE

In this case, the way she would like to be is me! Which would be flattering if it was someone that I liked or respected. But what a loser. And for what the majority of you are asking me; the answer is no, not at all. Pathetic huh? Damn, this girl should be paying me!! And what a BEG FRIEND. And I hate that saying. But it fits her perfectly. Awww, let her do her thing, I'm sure when she looks in the mirror and realises she doesn't know her own identity, she must feel a little shame. Because noone in their right mind can do what she is doing and not feel any shame. Girl where is your self-respect!! And if all of you, my fans, supporters, friends are hitting me up regarding this embarassing situation, I know that it is not me or my problem.

Anyhoo...gonna go back to these merchandise shots

Sorry that my blog started off on a bad note, oh and ended on one lol, but I'm just keeping it real with all of you. If I am totally honest it left me feeling suicidal, but I realised, with the help of my friends, and work commitments that kept me occupied, that my future is too bright to waste on jealous ex boyfriends or haters.

Do your thing! Forget the haters or negativity! What doesn't kill you will only make you stronger. Apparently. To be honest my body is killing me right now and I'm feeling pretty weak. But mentally, I can take over the world ;)

I love you

Portia xx

MORE MAGAZINE FEATURES!

Just posting up my latest features/interviews for you to read and enjoy. I have an interview in Cause A Scene magazine; a teenage magazine. http://www.CauseASceneMagazine.com. Feel free to leave your thoughts underneath. Thank you so much for all your comments on my Yo! Raps interview; it's the most popular article on the site! lol.

Oh and I am also featured in the Fashion and Beauty section of UrbanWorld; read it here:

http://www.urbanworld.co.uk/fashion/content.php?id=1905

Really busy today so I'll have to get back to you later

Love you all

Thank You and Keep Supporting

Portia xx