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Love Your Life!

Hey!

I am going to type this sooooo fast as I have to go and do something but I've been dying to write something for the last few days but haven't had a chance to!

It feels like things are changing for me and like I am going in a direction I never imagined myself going in; it's hard to explain but doors are opening and although it isn't the path I necessarily imagined myself taking, it is still an exciting and challenging journey so I am willing to go for it!

Anyway, I guess you will hear/see/know more on that as and when things start to develop...

Last week I hosted the Love Ur Life Charity Date Auction and it was so much fun! I was presenting alongside Little Man and he had me in stitches!

The auction was aimed to raise money for the Terrence Higgins Trust; an organisation that raises awareness on sexual health issues; very important I must say! Particularly for young adults/teenagers as they are getting more and more careless these days!

So, the Kaizen Creatives got 10 gorgeous guys and girls together and they were up for auction! It was good because the incentives to bid were great; free tickets to concerts such as Musiq SoulChild and T-Pain, as well relaxing spa pampering days.

The acts were fantastic; Wre-Asha's voice was big! Soulful and powerful, she rocked it Erykah Badu style. Little Man tried to woo me with a rose that was given to him! Pfttt..I wasn't having any of it.

One of the beautiful Auctionesses!



Testing the goods for the ladies...I'm such a good host!



Little Man tells them where they are going on their date!



Bruno was for sale!




This girl's legs were like never-ending!



Al was gorgeous! Some lucky girl got him for fifty squid!





Keston, Keston, Keston...lol!



The highest Auctioness!



Wreh-Asha showed the UK how it's done



Well done to the organisers!




Your hosts ;)





I wasn't even able to stay for the after party so I rushed off, jumped in the car and was on my way to Penthouse for my friend's night; it was CRAZY!








Now I've got a bit of research to do....also something I am very nervous about...

Anyway John Legend is having a party to celebrate his artist Vaughn Anthony's album launch, so if I get the time (and the energy) to head down there tonight I may do....

Have a great week ;)

Porsh xx

If you can't handle me at my worst, you don't deserve me at my best

Back To Normal Then!

Ok so it's official that I am back to my old self; I was up working until after 3am this morning, then rather than go straight to sleep I had a little munch. As normal, my phone calls started at around 6.30am, so I was back awake again after a couple of hours sleep. I have a 2pm appointment but still so much to do before then and I'd really like a 30 minute power nap before heading towards my destination. Not going to happen! But I love it!

Some of you are asking why my last post got edited; lets just say I am already taking back my comments....I was too hasty to get upset and write something that in actual fact isn't really true. It all got sorted and I realised I was being ungrateful and that the friend is an amazing friend; and an unconditional one at that. I really am too dramatic and emotional and I need to work on that!


I had a quick peep at some of my website videos; there will soon be some up both on my website and my Members Only site for you all to enjoy. The next few weeks are going to be mayhem but I can't wait until certain things are concrete so that I can really fill you in

Until then...

Ciao xx

I WILL NOT LOSE!

(by the way I think Jay Z is big but I'm just feeling the tune and feel like I can relate to it in many ways
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So I've been having an awful month and an even worse week; but blah blah blah who cares? I've already missed out on a couple of things this week (yes I know this week has only just started but I was supposed to attend some things this morning ((Monday))and due to some let downs was unable to. ..)

Anyhoo..... I WILL NOT LOSE! ;)

I am off to London today despite the disappointment as I have a run through for an event I am presenting. There is also so much to be done this week including shoots; Yeaaaahhh!!! Feels like I haven't done a shoot for ages despite it probably not being more than 2 or 3 weeks. Actually that is ages. But I think it's safe to say I am back to work! Part of me tells me I haven't had enough chill out time but I haven't much choice as some of these things I was booked for quite a while ago, plus the other part of me is itching to get back to doing what I do best

The sun is shining, and I heard it is in London too ;)

Your girl is back

Love ya

Porsh xx

Still recovering... :(

I didn't sleep a wink last night I was in so much pain. Then I spent the whole of today in hospital which was a nightmare but my girl stayed with me the whole day which I am very grateful for. Without best friends you will not get through a single thing.

I'm upset because I've had to miss Juice magazine's private launch party tonight. I've also missed out on a lot of work, shoots, meetings; I was supposed to meet up with some people that had flown down from the States for tonights party as well. Well I guess there will be other times and rather than focus on what I am missing out on I'm gonna have to just focus on getting better

I'm tired already from trying to write so I will have to get back to you later.


Sorry to be such a bore; I promise after I've had my rest and recovery time I will come back with a bang ;)

Love ya

P xx

Recovering....

I'm a bit down at the mo....had an operation yesterday and now I really do not feel myself and I am unable to get on with certain things. I'm angry with myself for letting it affect me more than I thought it would, but I'm sure that after a couple of days chilling out I will soon be back on the road.

My launch party went really well despite the fact that I was 4 hours late! It really was not intentional; I've sent out apologies to all my supporters and 99% of them understand lol. The other 1% said that they will never forgive me! Even when I did arrive I was a bit distant as I had yesterdays op on my mind...But a big thank you to all of those that came; especially those that came at 7 and actually waited untill 11.30pm for me to arrive just to meet me. That is real support and it got me a bit tearful lol. But maybe that was because I was emotional anyway.

My "rock" came with me yesterday and has been an absolute Godsend looking after me since. I really am counting my blessings right now.

I guess all there is for me to do right now is search for my holiday destination and recover....

P xx

Haven't been very well...but a surprise made it all better!

I haven't been very well recently; plus I've had a lot going on and stuff happening that is beyond my control; plus my PA is taking time off for unforseen circumstances so you can imagine that everything is a bit mad right now! I think it's safe to say that I have kinda been neglecting my work...kinda... but you know what it can't always be the most important thing to me and I've needed/still need time to recover so.....

The thing is some stuff in my work just can't wait. If it is neglected, it fails and I can't afford that. So I have to keep going on despite not being able to carry on. It's mad. It sometimes makes me hate my job. I've been really really thinking these last couple of weeks....

Anyway, I've had great support from loved ones, especially my closest and most loved friends.

If only you knew how badly I needed a break.....

And then; a very dear friend who I must admit has been a rock to me these last couple of months despite our ups and downs gave me THE BEST surprise EVER last night!
He said I can choose wherever I want to go on a holiday!!!! I was elated! Seriously; it's just what I need. I've been on the net literally all hours of this morning trying to decide where to go but I just can't decide. I had some help from my facebook buddies but I'm still so unsure. I don't want to travel too far as it will only be for 5 days or so; I can't really go away any longer than that unless I wait a few months as I have been booked to present a few charity events and host a couple of gigs so I have to squeeze the break in somewhere in between!

As I was saying to my pals;

"I need some winter sun! And it needs to be BAKING so I am guaranteed a healthy looking glow! lol. And preferably a hotel with great spa facilities. And it has to be on, or right near a beach. Somewhere that is a quiet retreat but not too far from night life if I feel like a little dance! And lots of scenic walks and history/culture. But I'm not fussy or anything! looool. Seriously I am so indecisive it's killing me. And nothing is ever quite right....HELP!! xxxx"

Lol! Any suggestions?

Anyway I'm off to a meeting that I believe will prove to be very worth my while so let me start getting prepared. I won't elaborate; I now have a Members Only diary that I update so only my Member's know the little ins and outs...of a lot of things; personal and business. Cool huh?

Ciao!

Oh and don't be jealous of my little break; I was thinking somewhere in the Caribbean or a gorgeous European city..... ;)

P xx

Sometimes, if I close my eyes and imagine hard enough, I am on a beautiful, deserted beach.

I can't hear anyone

To my love.....

Happy Valentines xx

More Fool Them!

Isn't it a shame how a rare few just don't realise your worth?

Oh well. Good thing there are many more who do ;)

Here's to moving on....

Everyone makes mistakes.

I guess we can also hurt people without meaning to. We can also be really hurt, and although we know that person did not mean to do so, it doesn't take away the pain.

Sometimes it doesn't matter how much someone apologises, or tells you they didn't mean it, or that they would never do anything to upset you again. Sometimes it's never enough to take the pain away.

Only you are capable of doing that. Only you can finally get over something and realise that the past is the past and always will be the past.

But what you can do is learn from your experiences; learn from your hurt and learn from the effects your actions had on others.

And then it somehow becomes something beautiful. You reach an understanding and you realise that nothing, or noone else matters.

The ugly past no longer affects your beautiful present

You forgive. And you are forgiven

Here's to moving on

Here's to lazy days!

Everyone keeps calling me and messaging me to apologise for not coming out the other night! They all said if they're honest they weren't tryna get stranded in a snow blizzard for nobody! Loool if it wasn't for some still making the effort despite the flipping snow, I wouldn't have turned up myself!

Ok so the new date is the 17th Feb, Vendome, Knightsbridge. More details coming soon...

If I'm honest I feel quite sick and rough right now; on top of that my friend managed to fracture his knee, so unless I'm going to go and help him out I don't see myself doing much physically today

Here's to lazy days!

P xx

Rescheduled! Typical!

It hasn't snowed like that in how many years and it decides to on the day of my pre-launch for my website!! I was so pissed off I wasn't even going to turn up!! But a few people had made it down; some had flown from Paris and even the States just to see me, so I knew I still had to go down....Lets just say it was not one of the best nights I've had, but certainly not the worst. After getting through about 7 bottles of champs I started to lighten up! And Shereen-Crystal, a friend and amazing singer got on the mic and gave us goosebumps with her beautiful voice.

After everyone had left a few of us stayed in for a lock-in and continued to dance away; the DJ seemed to leave the best music for our little private party which didn't make much sense to me. Oh my goodness I adored the bongo player; he was fantastic!

Can you believe we then were stranded in the club because no taxi's would come out in the snow and noone wanted to drive! In the end I ended up paying a random guy who was the club owner's friend to make the dreaded journey; we actually got stuck trying to get up Richmond Hill and the car was swerving and sliding everywhere!

But........

My OFFICIAL website launch will be on Tuesday 10th, and hopefully this time there won't be a snow storm! There will be models from Brazil auctioning clothes and a fashion show, better weather, better vibes ;) I guess everything happens for a reason. Though I can't really understand why this had to happen lol. I feel bad because I didn't really mingle last night but it's only because I arrived so late and was dealing with loads of little things when I arrived and to be honest I felt quite agitated; the photographers were getting on my nerves (sorry guys) but getting snapped all the time gets annoying when you just want to chill out. So I think it's safe to say I wasn't the loveliest person...but understandably ;)

Anyway just make sure you make it down on Tuesday 10th and I promise you you'll have a fantastic night.

And I'll be in a better mood















I think I have pneumonia after a shoot I did on location; it was absolutely freezing but I had to just take it and strike my poses, trying not to shiver too much. Just seen some of the shots and they look hot so it's all worth it. The torture us models go through! The photographer was Squiz Hamilton; he's so talented and I love working with him.

Gonna cook some food now sweeties

Ciao

Portia xx

You got the wrong girls!!

So last night went to the Neyo party. If I'm honest it wasn't that great. The best part was probably stealing Oreo cookies from Neyo's dressing room. And I'm not lying. So we got there around 11...crowd was already warming up and once masterstepz arrived the music was good so yeah there was a good vibe and everyone was getting down. But all I was really interested in was seeing Neyo perform. Well actually I wanted to see his dancers cos at his gigs he always has good performers. Obviously I had my all access wrist band but even that didn't prove to be much fun; the vip lounge and dressing room area was dead; the lounge more or less consisted of me, my girl Carmen, Danielle Lloyd and a friend, two randoms and a couple of photogs and promoters...there wasn't much going on in there so after claiming one of the dressing rooms and dumping our stuff in there we went back on the dance floor.

Then as the room started to get quite full we moved onto the stage to have our own free space to party. Neyo came. He sang one song. He went back to his table on the stage and surrounded himself with groupies.

Now to all the girls that were surrounding him; I am not calling you a groupie; you are what you are and to the girls that I knew and just wanted pictures etc it's all love. But you know who I am talking about.

Why are girls such let-downs these days? Are you really willing to sleep with someone as long as they are famous? Do you think it's a good look? Is that how you plan to get somewhere in life? Do you think you were the first girl for him?....that day?

I'm not here to judge, but I think girls should conduct themselves a little better. That's all.

Anyway, Neyo has never really interested me that much so when he said wait 2 minutes for a pic I was gone and straight back to dancing away.

Girls were throwing themselves over him and it wasn't really my style so I left the stage and went to meet a couple of friends that had just arrived.

My girl was still on stage, on the other side of the stage to where Neyo was sitting, oblivious to what was going on (as usual) and in her own little world dancing hard as she always is. So after about 45 minutes I came back to the stage to find her.

Couldn't see her anyway.

Asked Masterstepz "Where's my friend?"

Dunno

Asked my boy Gianno "Where's my friend?"

"Oh, that curly- haired mad girl? She got asked to leave the stage"

What??!!

Why on earth would she get asked to leave the stage? She's with me?? Lol!

So I went and asked security if it was true, and they were like "Oh, your curly haired mad friend?" (Yeah, they described her exactly the same way my friend did. "She got asked to leave because she was annoying Neyo"

Now something didn't make sense to me, because I know that she did not care about Neyo.

So I told them exactly that. And do you know what they said? "That's exactly why. He only wants groupies"

???????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was like ARE YOU SERIOUS.

Well I went back on stage and purposely walked past Neyo who made this stupid noise like daaaaaaaaayyyymm and tried to holla, and I gave him the DIRTIEST look ever and said "wrong girl baby"

Haha! Revenge for my girl! I should have thrown one of his bottles of champagne at him!

I went searching for my girl and found her in our dressing room lol, the one we had claimed when we first arrived, charging her phone. I was cracking up. She didn't give a damn, cussed a bit but we were soon back on the dance floor laughing at the losers that will happily degrade themselves to be near a famous guy.

My girl was like, what did he want me to do, jump on him? Pleeeaaassse.

So the honest truth is the highlight for me was that and the Oreo cookies

I've got some pics but I'm not gonna post them all up now, but here's a few. And thank goodness for Raeqwon; noone need bother to take a camera out with them these days with Raeqwon about.

About to go on stage and sing the one tune that he bothered to sing
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With Toba and Mike L


Masterstepz playing to an excited (for nothing) crowd


Some chick actually threw her knickers on stage. I think that's the type of girls he wanted at his table with him



Danielle looks good as a brunette; with Raeqwon



With my boy Gianno who I hadn't seen in ages





All the pics of me and my girl are on her camera and I'm not with her now, so I'll upload them later.

Oh I got some of the pics of me and my friend at the Thriller Premier but I'll post them up another day too


Anyway before the Neyo party I had an appointment at the salon that sponsors my hair; Adee Phelan. Fantastic hairdressers, won loads of awards and have done loads of celebrities hair including Solange, David Beckham, Sean Paul, Erykah Badu, Thandie Newton to name a few. I wanted to get rid of my highlights so Lorraine told me to come in and within a few hours I had a gloriously glossy mane ;) www.AdeePhelan.com
Lorraine will be talking a bit about what she does with my hair and other celebs she has worked with on my website soon and all my Member's will be able to get a discount at the salon, so I'll let you know when to check that out. She's off to Dubai today for a well earned break.

Day before I had a shoot and a few interviews including a filmed interview for Streetz Inc. Not sure whether I'll post that up; it will def go on my Members Site but I may put a few snippets up on here or on the main website.

The shoot went well despite me being pissed about a few work-related discrepancies and the pics look hot. I met another model Sashia there who also provided some gorgeous pieces as she is a stylist. She was lovely and I just found this pic of us on her page



Anyway I shouldn't even be here writing a blog when I have 101 other things to do and I'm actually falling behind on a few things. So you can catch up with me later. I am shooting again tomorrow so really I should get to work and try to be in bed at a decent time for once

Speak soon

Love ya

Porsh xx