A change of heart....

...In more ways than one.

I have been feeling quite down these last couple of days; my work and personal life had taken it's toll; I felt like I was surrounded by bad vibes, nastiness and jealousy, was feeling quite depressed and as a result I was attracting more and more bad situations (I'm a strong believer of like attracts like, well it is simple physics after all)

But today I am feeling a lot more positive; I took a look around me and realised I should be smiling. I am not going to let all these negative factors bring me down; that's what they want. Some people have resentments because they are not where they want to be in life so they resort to trying to put others down, to make their situation look better. It's very unattractive, but then so is being depressed, so I realised I had to snap out of it! All these bad things started happening to me, and to be honest they still are, but a lot worse is happening to others as I write this, so I will count my blessings rather than be weak.

I met a few inspirational people today, and I took the next step in a project I have going on at the moment (all will be revealed soon, I promise) so I'm feeling positive. See! The minute I decided to change my negative energy for positive I benefited from it!

I have some great applicants for my new PA, so I will be meeting with them soon and making a choice...I really do find it hard to trust anyone but I will just have to! I've been my own manager, agent, PA, etc for a while now and it hasn't done me too bad! But I am starting to accept help; as you know I joined a big modelling agency the other day, and I already have management in the States dealing with my international affairs....Oh life is good ;)

I'm loving this change of heart....

Now I said in more ways than one right? Well let's just say I am really starting to see things differently. I guess I'm just maturing due to experiences and I'm starting to understand exactly what love is....

It feels great....

Portia x x

The Key To Success.....

Is to find your OWN IDENTITY. Know what it is YOU want, and WHY you are GOING TO GET IT. What makes you DIFFERENT to others? What makes you STAND OUT?

I am writing this especially for certain individuals; you know who you are.

The reason I have been successful in my career so far is down to me being me. You will not get anywhere in life trying to be someone else or something that you're not. Don't get me wrong; it's not always enough to just be yourself. You have to GET YOUR NAME OUT THERE. You have to have good marketing strategies; something I am blessed to have naturally.

It is a shame that some people have to copy my marketing strategies to try to become successful; it is also a shame that they aren't good enough to get out there on their own. I was flattered at first; but do some people not have any shame? I mean, are they not embarrassed?

You know who you are


YOU ARE OPENLY AND PUBLICLY TRYING TO BE ME. I am cringing for you!

My workshops teach girls how to find their own individuality, and yes, I will cover marketing skills with them, but that is different. I WANT to help them because they are my workshop girls.
But when some has-beens are literally trying to be Portia Freno I find it ridiculous. You can be inspired by Portia, you can get tips from Portia and help your own career grow, but you can't be me. Why would you want to be? I mean, I have role models but I don't want to be them! I want to learn from them.

Like I said, you know who you are. Don't be shy to hit me up and ask for advice rather than the silliness you are doing now; that way you will save a lot of face.Don't you want to know that you made it because you were capable? Not because of me??!!!!

I don't mean to sound bitchy girls and guys, this is only aimed at certain people and if you knew what they were doing you would laugh and agree! I do in fact wish them all the best in their endeavors; everyone deserves a chance and after years and years of trying it's what they deserve...

Anyway, I have some research to do for my next article in Eclectic magazine; I think you will find this one interesting....

Write down 5 things that you love about yourself before you sleep tonight

Portia x x

STABBINGS AND SECRETS

Hey,

Ok, so I know it's been a while since I wrote on this, but there are a couple of reasons. The first reason is that I really didn't have time. I do now though, as I have taken a few days out to go and see my family, catch up on paperwork etc and relax a bit. I'm constantly running around and my body shut down last week; a way of telling me I need to chill out sometimes. Even when I'm chilling my brain is working overtime. I haven't slept properly in months. The second reason is I can't write about half of the stuff I want to; professionally and personally. I have been advised not to write about certain things; which is quite infuriating but I guess you'll all have to find out when the time is right! I am itching to mention what I have in the pipeline....but rules are rules and I guess I'll just have to abide by them. The only reason I'm a bit pissed is because this was supposed to be like my personal diary; obviously not too personal, lol, but I wanted to let my readers know exactly what goes on in my life.

Anyway, so much has happened since I last wrote I don't even know where to start. I got accepted by the agencies so I'm really happy. There is a certain someone in the same industry as me who tried to tarnish my image; there is history behind us and she is really working on ruining my reputation, but it didn't work! The things that have been going on with me are like a bloody movie! I didn't realise that girls could be that ridiculous but then what can I say; I am only flattered really. I was a bit pissed off cos in the past it has messed up a couple of my modelling assignments, but what goes around comes around so I am not too fussed. I know why she hates on me anyway; I just think she could have been a bit more grown up about it.

You are not going to believe the next bit; I was advised not to mention this but I'm going to anyway; I'm already keeping most things secret and I want to keep it real with my fans; I got stabbed. Yes STABBED. I am ok, but it was a really horrible experience. I was in the wrong place at the wrong time (well actually I wasn't, because the drama came to me) and I am just thankful to God that it was not a lot more serious. I can only pray that the girl that did it finds it in herself to grow up and learn that the way she lives her life is wrong. What she did was awful. Can you believe it? Me of all people. I mean, I can handle a constructive argument but violence like that makes me sick. What makes it worse is that I had nothing to do with the girl and vice versa. It just shows how innocent people can get seriously hurt. She is dangerous and people like that should be locked up; I am sick of hearing about innocent (or even not that innocent) people getting killed or seriously hurt because of knife crime. Please join my group and support the cause http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=21638434823#/group.php?gid=23803577281

Anyway, like I said, I'm cool now, I just hope the scarring isn't too bad cos as a model obviously that is not a good look...

I'm shooting my 2009 calendar which is sooo exciting! I was supposed to do one last year but was too busy; I think I was in the States working and there was just too much to do. I was worried that it was going to be the same this year as I have even more on my plate now and really it should already be out, but I'm going to make sure I have the time for that. I may also do a limited edition one as well to sell from my website; something for the guys maybe?..... ;)

Oh my goodness! I just went to write something then realised that I can't!! Ooooooohhhhhhhh this is not fair! lol. No but seriously, you will be surprised. Just be patient and keep checking my page....

I'm supposed to be in the States but I want to work on my charity so I have postponed it; hopefully I will be back there from October and then I am afraid that my UK fans may not see me for a while....I am happy that Akon is supporting my charity. It really is something that needs to change and to be honest I think all major artists should be raising more awareness.

If you've been hearing a certain rumour it is probably true...but that is all I'm going to say...

I have to go now because I need to go through all my applicants for my photo shoot at Jump Offs next event. One of the girls I pick will get a feature in HHC magazine so it will be really good for their career.

Will love you and leave you

Keep your mind right and your body tight

Portia x x